I know I'm appreciated...I was just having a bad week. That wasn't directed at either of you.

And, after talking to one of you today, I hope you aren't somewhat bothered by the fact that I do things like that for you. I know that I didn't have to, but I wanted to. I never needed you to return any kind of feeling towards me...I just wanted how I felt to mean something, to be worth something. When I can do something that you like, or something that you need or want, that's when I feel good about myself. That's when I think I'm not so bad off afterall. Everytime I talk to you, I feel like I'm a little closer to heaven.
I know that I can never pay the debt I owe to you - it's much too big to pay. But I hope you understand that I have to try; it's just the way I am. Don't worry about me...you're not hurting me, I promise.