Thursday, April 29, 2004

Ok, so now that I have some time I can sit down and write about the Orgy concert last night. Unfortunately I guess at this point in my career I can't write everything that I want to since this is a public blog, but here's a few ideas, lol.

The drive down was great. I had stopped by TREX to get my copy of Jimmie's Chicken Shack's "re.present". Totally great album; it was also cool because the clerk at the store happened to comment that that was the third copy he'd sold within the last hour or so. Cool. So I'm chilling to this album on the close to three hour drive down, and I love it...at the moment, "Falling Out" and "Ghettoverit" are instant favorites.

Anyways, I get to Rafters painlessly about an hour before doors. I get my passes from the tour manager and come back out and wait for Lance to arrive. While I'm outside I get a chance to meet some of the other fans; a couple of people recognized me from the boards, and then a few others just came up and said hi, intrigued by the D1 shirt, lol. Everyone was totally awesome...shouts out to Cami, synth faerie, and Chris! After we get inside I got a beer and chilled for a bit listening to the first two bands. I was in and out, looking for Lance since he was coming later, and finally found him sitting out in the mustange next to the bus, lol. So we hung out for a bit, then headed inside as Orgy was getting ready to play. Lance gave me his camera since I had a press pass and I was able to get up front and get (hopefully when the film is developed, lol) some awesome shots. God, it was amazing! The band had such a great stage presence. Jay and Ryan especially were awesome. They had told the band that I was there taking pics for the site, so they all totally played to my camera...it was so great! But yeah, I'll be having a review and those photos up at D1 eventually, so I'll link to it then.

Afterwards, the band did signings, and we all hung around while they did that. I took a few "fan interaction" pics, so hopefully I'll have those up too. (Everything has to be approved by Lou and the band, so no promises on anything, lol) Then we headed out to get some fresh air, and a few minutes later Jay comes rolling out looking for Lance and invites us up on the bus. Jay is a very, very cool dude. Offered us drinks and just chilled out for a bit while the rest of the band came back out. They had to get on the road right away, so we took a few group photos (definately not seeing those, lol. sorry) and I got a hug from Jay and Paige, and we headed on.

I was really impressed with how committed they all were on stage, and how friendly they were off. Definately one hell of a night. Can't wait for the Springfield show.

The other fun thing was the security gaurd that may or may not have been hitting on me. I had first talked to him when I was outside and he was directing traffic. Later he happened to be gaurding the barrier right where I was standing, so we talked some more, then later when they were spraying the crowd down he shot me right in the face, lol. It was pretty funny, but I played it all mock-offended, and I told him he owed me a beer, lol. So he came up later and said he'd get me one, but right after that we headed outside and then on to the bus. The dude actually came out and found me on the bus and gave me my bacardi raz, lmao! It's good to be a girl.

So yeah...good times. In other news, on the same night the guys in my astrophysics lab destroyed the pointing model.
Wow, last night was like the best thing ever! More after class...




Song of the Day:
Orgy - "Can't Take This"
www.punkstatikparanoia.com

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

had a dream last night you cared and asked me how i am
well i am
sometimes the road that victory takes leads us to no good end
and we bend
as pure as the sun
as sure as the sky
you miss out me saying it's time to fly
change has begun
so cease your regrets
i make good mistakes
and i'm not over yet
i won't give up on me like you did
i choose to let myself see the good in
not being for you but you wish you could be
smiling
smiling
and i wake up but don't look in the mirror
walk downtown as if it one day it might come clearer
think i see you
but you couldn't be farther
picture a little girl that could have been my daughter
hope you live up to be what you will
i choose to keep myself free and the truth is
i always think of you, hope you will think of me
smiling
smiling
now i stand quiet and still smiling
you know i swallow that pill smiling
i guess i can't get my fill of smiling
going alone i will smiling
breathing is really cool, and i love my life
every reason in the world to be smiling
breathing is really cool, and i love my life
every reason in the world to be smiling
breathing is really cool, and i love my life
every reason in the world to be smiling...

- Jimmie's Chicken Shack, "Smiling"
Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like you said I would
A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things
If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...
Blessed are the shallow
For depth they'll never find
Seems to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide
Exposed beyond the shadows
You take the cup from me
Your dirt removes my blindness
Your pain becomes my peace
If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...
...frail

- Jars of Clay, "Frail"
Empty again
Sunken down so far
So scared to fall
and not get up again
So I lay at your feet
All my brokenness
I carry all of my burdens to you
All of these things
I've held up in vain
No reason no rhyme
Just the scars that remain
Of all of these things
I'm so much afraid
Scared out of my mind
By the demons I've made
Sweet Jesus, you never ever let me go
Oh, sweet Jesus, never ever let me go
So happy to love
Yet so far to go
You lead me on to where I've never been before

- Jars of Clay, "Much Afraid"
It's almost over.



Song of the Day:
Alanis - "I Was Hoping"
www.alanis.com

Saturday, April 24, 2004

So I spent most of the afternoon watching those movies for class...meh. Could think of several other things I'd rather be doing on a Saturday. I also got some new stuff on my website for webdesign and band support. :-) Gimme, gimme.

Not much else going on I guess. At least nothing that I feel comfortable saying anymore.



Song of the Day:
Redrum - "For You"
www.redrumonline.com

Friday, April 23, 2004

So I turned on my TV and got the best shock all week: Star Trek Deep Space Nine is now back on!!! Favorite ST series ever. *happy dance* It happens to be one of the really awesome two-part episodes, too. :-)

Lance, I love you. :-)
So glad it's Friday! It's nice out again, so I might go lie out for awhile after class. Right now I'm giving my hand a break from drawing in design lab, and just sitting next to the window listening to some music...

More good stuff happening. I should be done this weekend with the website I'm doing for Otto's Daughter. Plus, I just heard back from this other awesome band, Glamour Kings, and I'll be one of their promotional managers shortly. :-) Also wanna give a shout out to Tenebrion for linking to both me and my VV site. :-)



Song of the Day:
Orgy - "Pure"
www.punkstatikparanoia.com
Hehe...fun times. After spending the afternoon watching movies for class and working on costume designs, me and Corrie headed over to the Nerv for "Langerie Night". Unfortunately, it must not have been well-advertised, because we were some of the very few actually dressed up (or down, or not at all, or however you look at it). But it was still cool...we hung out with some people for a bit, got bought drinks, and enjoyed soaking up the attention. Me and Corrie looked uber hot, and it was nice to be admired for a change, lol. So I think I got my self-esteem quota of the evening.

Speaking of the Nerv, everyone remember tomorrow is the last day to buy your Spring Thing tickets. :-) I spent a lot of time collecting pictures for Lee, so make my effort worth it.

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Had a great afternoon yesterday...spent time with Lance just chilling. We went to dinner, then to the office...he doing computer work and me doing homework, then we just hung out and snuggled and talked for a long time about whatever. It was great. I think we both needed the stress relief, lol. Choice quote of the evening:

"...that man has got some evil things coming to him." - Lance, 1:16am

Got a lot of stuff done today...I think I did really well on my astrophysics report, and then I finally made it back to dance class today. Once I get in my movie reviews she'll clear my incomplete for the semester and I'll graduate. :-) And that should be this weekend. So I feel much more relieved.

All that's really left is the HODAT papers and the remainder of my Design Lab Gallery. Well, plus the last two projects for Astrophysics, but those are easy, fun, or both. And then yeah...wow...so close I can taste it.



Song of the Day:
Glamour Kings - "One And Only"
www.glamourkings.com

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

I hate homework.
It's just too nice outside to do real work. That's the real problem here, lol. I'm sitting in Design Lab, the prof is nowhere to be found, and I'm just playing online. I've done my research already, and not really interested in starting my designs yet. Heh.

Things I mentioned yesterday have calmed down it seems. I'm glad.

Went to the doctor, got more medicine and a referral. Meh. I just wish I was fixed. Don't have any more time to be sick.

So yeah, I'm gonna spend the rest of the afternoon working on the Theatre Dept. website...we need to put up a Facilities page so I need to go around and get some decent pictures of all our performance and work spaces, plus write up some descriptions, and maybe even get some reduced floor plans. I was supposed to have this all done by today, but I've just been so busy with everything. Fortunately, other things have given me an extra day to do this, so I should get it done in time. I've also gotta get my Astrophysics project done...but it's astrometry and we've done that before so it should be easy...it's really cool actually...there's a program we can get that pretty much does it for you...it pulls information from the star guide CD and tells you everything you're looking for for the asteroid based on the info it has for the surrounding areas. So that's cool.



Song of the Day:
Redrum - "For You"
www.redrumonline.com

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Weird stuff happening...anyways, can't really talk about it here. Guess that's why I still have my real journal sitting on my bookshelf at home. One of these days I'll publish everything and make lots of money, lmao. Nah...just weird things all breaking down.

In other news, I love my Lance! *snuggles* But you guys already knew that.

Doing a little work here before class...gonna be a long day. We've got a lot of data to reduce for Astrophysics, plus I've got another doctors appointment this afternoon so I have to race back up to Roanoke for that. Still waiting to hear about that job...hopefully I'll know something by this weekend.



Song of the Day:
Redrum - "Cosmic"
www.redrumonline.com

Sunday, April 18, 2004

Such a great weekend...wish it would last longer. It has been sooooooooo nice outside. Just in two days I've managed to start bringing back a tan...it's so nice now that the steroids are fixing my skin to be able to wear a tank top and lay out for a bit.

Last night Corrie and her BF, Mike, stopped by randomly and invited me to a little party thing at a friends apartment. I'm not really a huge party person, but I love just chilling out with a few people. And that's pretty much what it was...chillin with strangers with stolen alcohol from the party in the next apartment, in a smashed up room. Lol...apparently these guys just destroy their own furniture at intervals, so we arrived to a very nice coffee table in many peices on the floor. So now both me and Corrie have new picture frames stolen from the carnage. That's how you can pick out theatre majors...we look at destruction and think "hey, I could use that for my design lab model." :-)

Not much else going on. Got a very good email back from this third band I've been working with. Finally got to a very good design that we're both happy with, so hopefully that'll be online shortly!

Getting ready to go drop off an application at TRE, just in case this other job doesn't work out. Gonna pick up an extra copy of PSP while I'm there; I decided it would be cool to have an extra copy to frame, so that when I get my own house I can add it to the "I Love Me" room. Have I ever written about that? I can't wait to get my own big place, because all of my rooms are going to be decorated in different themes, one of which being a self-esteem room, lol. Just like an office or something that has all the cool stuff I ever did or won in it. So I can step in there and be surrounded by good memories and accomplishments. Not that I would need to use it that often, but I think it would be nice to just have one little place of my own somewhere that I could go to to be reminded that I'm better than what people usually take me for. The rest of my house will have other themes, like an "oriental" room (sorry to use that word...but I won't go into my theories of western appropriation here again, lol...you guys know me and know what I mean.) A "jungle" room...lots of animal prints and such, a "futuristic" room...that would be my computer, sound system, tv...everything electronic, with my super-cool computer desk I have sitting at home. A "garden" room...lot's of ivy and flowers. Everywhere. An "antique" room...pretty obvious...lots of older things. So yeah, stuff like that. It'll be fun.

Just got off the phone with Jeremiah, too. He's back at his undergrad this week, and he seems pretty happy. Better than the Chicago trip, I'm sure. I miss my big brother though...you know...in a few weeks all of this is going to be over for good. It's not just a summer vacation this time. This is it. Some of these friends I will never see again. It's sad, but I was never one to get too overly emotional about moving on. I always figure you'll keep in touch with the people you're meant to keep in touch with. I still talk to people from Lynchburg & Salem...so I have no doubts that I will always see the friends I've made here that are really worth it. :-) I rarely have any fears about moving on. I'm sitting here with the sun pouring in and a warm breeze blowing through and I am so ready for the next part of my life. If only I could get my damn homework done, lol.



Song of the Day:
Celldweller - "I Believe You"
www.celldweller.com

Saturday, April 17, 2004

Just got back in from hanging out with my Lance. :-) He spent part of the afternoon fixing the sound system in the Mustang, so that was cool. We hung out outside in the nice warm sun while he got that going, then just kinda chilled out for the afternoon. He's taking some friends up to UVA for a football camp thingy this evening, so I'll be boy-less for the rest of the weekend. Jeremiah headed out to Iowa yesterday, so he's gone all week, too. Meh. Who's gonna rub my feet??? lol, j/k. *snuggles her Lance*

For all of you Alan Rickman fans, be sure to check out the new desktop over on the official Harry Potter site. :-)

Not much else going on. Trying to get caught up on stuff and push things with these two last bands I'm working with. Getting ready to put up an "Artist Services" page on my site for webdesign, promotion, etc...hopefully make a little bank on this stuff eventually. :-)

Gonna go back out and lay out in the sun...



Song of the Day:
Glamour Kings - "Blue Rose"
www.glamourkings.com

Friday, April 16, 2004

Such a nice day today. Slept through my alarm so I missed class, but whatever...it's Friday. I got up late but got a lot of work done. I sat outside on the balcony and worked on my stuff for Design Gallery. It was good to be in a tank top and shorts and feel the sun on my skin and not care today. I got most of my model built and the base of my rendering done, so yeah, good progress.



Song of the Day:
Plumb - "Crazy"
www.plumbinfo.com

Thursday, April 15, 2004

Had a very good interview this afternoon. I think things may work out well. :-)

Not much else going on. The meds are starting to kick in, so I'm feeling better. Still have a bit of a ways to go, though.



Song of the Day:
Jimmie's Chicken Shack - "When You Die You're Dead
www.jimmieschickenshack.net

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

So I finally broke down and went to the doctor today...that place creeps me out. They were playing salsa music in the waiting room.

"another day
I'm happy to see
another day
I might as well just be me on another day
another day"



Song of the Day:
Jimmie's Chicken Shack - "Another Day"
www.jimmieschickenshack.net

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

Take this knife and let me offer you my chest
I always was too forgiving
Who would know that my greatest sin
would be giving you the benefit of the doubt?

If you really feel so little
Then why don't you take this now?
But you can't see putting an end to your own comfort
(because you know what you're doing)

I held on for you
I prayed for you
I suffered for you
I sacrificed for you
I bleed for you
I starve for you
I loved for you
And for all this there is nothing?
(I have nothing in return)

I never thought I asked for too much
I never wanted to be your whole world
I never presumed to be a priority
What else do I have to do to be worth it?
(Am I no longer good enough?)

I struggled for you
I cry for you
I fought for you
I hated for you
I strain for you
I fell for you
So won't you please give me back?
(give me back my life, my heart, my own self-respect...)

It's such a slap in the face
To tell me I'm not good enough
(but I know I am)
It's such a burning anger
To know that I'm expendable
(you can't survive without me)
It's such twisting pain
To see the future that lies before me
(I'm better off out of your reach)

Alone
Untouchable

- The Last Laugh, "Give Me Back"
Life is a cycle, huh? So those of you close to me know that I'm having another round with the metal allergy...so, of course, I was unable to fall asleep until about 5 this morning, and me being the wise being that I am, forgot to set the alarm. Aside from the monthly rude awakening at 9 in the morning by the exterminator, I woke up at 4:30 this evening. I woke up smeared with blood with the skin coming off my neck. Yeah, I'm sorry, that was gross, but I'm particularly angry at a certain person in particular for telling me it's not that bad. Fuck you; this hurts.
It's bad enough that I have self-image problems, but on top of that I get to walk around at the beginning of spring all wrapped up in sweaters because I'm too afraid to let people see my skin. I would love to join my friends as they lay out on the drillfield in the sun, but that would just be too gross. I really, really, really hate my body.
Ok, I'm done with my rant. I'm going to email some professors whose classes I inadvertantly skipped again today, and go back to bed. If someone wants to bring me food, I'd appreciate it.



Song of the Day:
Jimmie's Chicken Shack - "Sitting With The Dogs"
www.jimmieschickenshack.net
I would also like to take this time and say that it is really scary how much of the content on collegehumor.com is from VA Tech. Go Hokies?
So as I'm wide awake with nothing to do, I figured I'd take this time and just talk for awhile.

I'm in that lovely position where the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. I came back from Utah ready to face my problems head-on, and spent a good month settling into the fact that I didn't have Steve right by my side anymore. We got things worked out, and had a good thing going between us even though he was away. But then after January rolled around, he just dropped off the face of the earth for two months...and couldn't understand that I needed more. During that unfortunate transition, I met one of the sweetest guys of my life, and we've had almost two great months together. But as school is getting ready to finish, the Orgy tour is getting underway, and all those other random requirements get in the way, I'm realizing that this was probably the worst possible time for me to fall in love.

A few months ago when I was doing preliminary research for a job, I was willing to go anywhere...cruise ships...tours... California, to be close to D1. Key West, to be close to the best beach ever. England, to work on the Harry Potter movies and drool over Alan Rickman. All these ideas that I was perfectly willing to take the risk and follow through on. And now, finally, the queen of getting the hell out of Virginia is desperate to stay in the most backassward part of the US. Because now I have something that's good enough to make everything else here worth it. And now I'm realizing how near-impossible this is going to be.

I can feel my heart shutting down to avoid getting hurt again.

Monday, April 12, 2004

I got hit by a car walking to school this morning. Not much else going on.




Song of the Day:
JCS - "School Bus"
www.jimmieschickenshack.net

Saturday, April 10, 2004

In response to an email I received today:
Lance: "Write him a poem back; 'If I was a dog and you were a flower...'"
ROTFLMAO. *snuggles Lance*




Song of the Day:
Celldweller - "Switchback"
www.celldweller.com

Friday, April 09, 2004

What is it with people lately? Not calling me back, not meeting up with me, not being available...why all of a sudden am I being taken for granted? People oughta know I'm the last person you pull that with. :-<

Anyways, I guess I'll be eating lunch on my own, putting up posters on my own, and chilling around here for awhile.



Song of the Day:
Orgy - "Pure"
www.punkstatikparanoia.com

Thursday, April 08, 2004

Saw this on Heather's blog, so I had to try it:

Choose a band and answer only in song titles by that band: Orgy
Are you male or female: Eva
Describe yourself: Dramatica
How do some people feel about you: Hot Legs (*winks at Lance*)
Describe your ex boyfriend/girlfriend: Beautiful Disgrace
Describe your current boyfriend/girlfriend: Pure
Describe your friends: Social Enemies
Describe what you want to be: Revival
Describe how you live: Vague
Describe how you love: Slept So Long
Share a few words of wisdom: Make Up Your Mind
One thing you want to say to someone: Leave Me Out
*snuggles with Lance*

Cool things happening...I just got a package from Jimi Haha in the mail with the Two For One Special CD and a bunch of flyers for the upcoming album...I get to be a promotion bitch again, lol.

More fun things coming, too, but can't say anything yet. Hehe...it kills me sometimes to keep my mouth shut.

I wish it were already Friday.



Song of the Day:
Jimmie's Chicken Shack - "Spiderweb"
www.jimmieschickenshack.net

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

So, I just added two more new journals to the side: "All Or Nothing", which is JVB's journal from Otto's Daughter, and Claudia's journal from Lunarclick*. :-)
Good times this afternoon. Spent a few hours programming the automated lights for the last mainstage. I have to say that Lee is an excellent teacher; he not only taught me how to work this board, but to understand why it works the way it does. Makes trouble-shooting so much easier. Now that I'm getting familiar with this thing, I really like it.

So I'm supposed to see Lance tonight, but I have to sit around and wait just in case we have to go to the observatory tonight. The sky clock looks bad, but the weather forcast looks fair, so it's up in the air. Grr.

Not much else going on. Trying to find a job. I applied for one yesterday, but it no longer sounds as good as it did advertised. Not really fulltime, and only 8/9$ per hour. Not really enough to make a living on. Ah well. I'll keep looking. I really wanna stay in the area for a few years, but I don't know where else to go look...I really wanna start up my own thing doing something, but no ideas on how exactly to do that. I like the idea Lee had awhile back, but that still requires me doing my own thing for a few years. If I thought I could get enough jobs by continuing to paint, I'd do that, but I just don't know enough rich people around here that would wanna hire me to marblize their houses, lol. I really like Dana's idea of starting a record store, but that would require money in the beginning, which I don't have, hence the reason I'm looking for a job to begin with. And the vicious cycle continues.

So, I guess I'll keep looking. I REALLY don't wanna have to move back in with the parents, so if I could find something good around here I could keep my apartment...*sigh* I'm creative. I'll come up with something.



Song of the Day:
Jimmie's Chicken Shack - "Falling Out"
www.jimmieschickenshack.net

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

me: did Thorn call back?
Lance: yeah
me: rotflmao
Lance: he was just like...wtf was that all about?
me: LMAO
me: what'd you tell him?
Lance: i said...i got ball smacked
Lance: he was like....ass smacked?
Lance: i said no...ball smacked
Lance: he was like...ok that explains it then

I don't think I've ever dated anyone that I've had this much fun with. *huggles Lance*

So talked to Lou some more and no Orgy show at VT...damn...I wish I made the amount of money he told me in one day. I wanna be famous! Lol. But yeah...just started a new forum for Orgy Promotion: http://orgypromotion.proboards30.com/ . Come play.

Monday, April 05, 2004

So I just got Otto's Daughter new demo in the mail, and WOW. I had already heard "Don't Care" from the mp3 on the site, and it was nice hearing it on my stereo for once, but the other song "Angels" is fucking amazing. Really heavy, but with a Indian blend...very, very cool sound. Can't wait to hear more new stuff.

Not much else going on...getting ready to head over to the theatre to do some programming. Yay for fun lights. Speaking of lights, me and Dana are attempting to get a concert scheduled here the last day of exams. You can probably guess for who. Lance said he'd talk to Thorn about opening, and Nad's gonna talk to Jimi to see if they'll come down too. It'd be a crazy mix of people, but we'd get a big crowd. Then Corrie just informed me that we'd probably be able to get a cheaper rate by doing this through APsiO (heh...it's gotta be good for something, lol) so yeah...who knows? Maybe this will work out. I just need to figure out who the hell I need to talk to to get this ball rolling.

In other news, Orgy's also playing in Johnson City at the end of this month. \m/ So...that's now four shows I'll be hitting. :-D



Song of the Day:
otto's Daughter - "Angel"
www.ottosdaughter.com

Saturday, April 03, 2004

Tore up the roads today in the mustang! We had a lot of fun...Lance took my over to the area where he grew up; showed me his parents' place, and then also took me to the Breaks state park, which was totally cool...we got there at sunset, so it was really pretty with no one else around. It's a huge place and really busy in the summer...lots of camping, hiking, boating, etc. So we're gonna do that stuff once it gets warmer. But yeah, just to give you an idea of how far over we are, the one overlook we went to looks out over into Kentucky. Yeah. Welcome to the real southwest Virginia. But it's actually really pretty around there...there's still remnants of the old coal towns and stuff, but I think all that's really interesting. And I love the mountains. :-) Hehe...then on the way back we raced some dude in a Camero....it was rather amusing, lmao.

*sighs contentedly* Why can't the rest of the week be like these weekends?



Song of the Day:
Jimmie's Chicken Shack - "Falling Out"
www.jimmieschickenshack.net

Friday, April 02, 2004

I have the best boyfriend ever. *snuggles*

Thursday, April 01, 2004

Who would believe that I wasn't good enough?
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind
What's eating at you now?
I can see right through you
No I'm not complaining
But you're running out of time
So what's become of this?
Just frowning faces
No more skeletons hiding
No point in confining
What needs to get out
Something inside of me
Has got me tripping on you
And I can't explain it
Maybe you're just no good for me
After all
Don't want it
Don't want it
Don't want it
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind
Now that I'm reading between the lines
I need to leave this alone
I know with so much rejection
How could I be satisfied
Can you face it, not at all
Is it possible that it could be you
Who makes the mistakes
Something inside of me
Has got me tripping on you
And I can't explain it
Maybe you're just no good for me
After all
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind
With or without this I'm alright
And part of me changes every time
Don't you know you're no good for me
Don't you know you're no good for me
I don't want it
Don't want it
Don't want it
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind
I can't take this
No I can't take this
No I can't take this
'Cause this is fucking up my mind



Song of the Day:
Orgy - "Can't Take This"
www.punkstatikparanoia.com