You know, when I went to talk to Ema earlier this week, and I expressed the thought that I didn't want to hurt the cast by being involved conceptually in the show, she said she'd like to see me come in and say 'fuck you'. For the show, that's not really my stance, but in a larger sense to life in general, fuck you. Everyone. Here I am beating myself up for your sake...as if it was my fault. In the face of all of this...every situation I'm dealing with right now...being nice, friendly, considerate, respectful is NOT my responsibility to you, but rather my gift. Because I am special, I am worth something, and I personally am better than these ordeals, and I choose to make it easier. I do not owe any of you anything. So stop taking my love and spiritual values for granted...they come from a Greater Power that I choose to follow on these events...not because of any redeeming quality that you possess.