I just spent a rather amusing night going back and reading my entries from April on... I gave Steve the link to this blog so that he could keep up with me on tour (and maybe get a better understanding of me), so I decided to go back and see just what I was broadcasting about myself these last couple of months. I thought it'd be depressing, but I was laughing through most of it...I'm glad I was able to keep my sense of humor through all of that. (Of course, having Dana around made that much, much easier...)

I also found a lot of song lyrics that I wrote...definately gonna have to do something with those when I get back into town. Speaking of which, I fly back next Saturday. My apartment contract starts the following Monday, so I should be beginning to move stuff down that day, but I probably won't actually move in completely until more like Wednesday or so. I can't believe school's starting again. I will definately try to make it to the shop as much as possible before school starts to help you guys out while David's still recovering.

In other news, I guess some of you are probably wondering what's going on with me and Jeremiah these days. Well, I emailed him a few weeks ago about the show we're doing, and since then we've had some really wonderful phone conversations in the last week. The remnents of this relationship may be one of my biggest challenges when I get home, but I am determined to not let this year be as hostile as last semester. The fight is over, people. I want to drop it, and I want you guys to drop it, too. I am very appreciative of how supportive and protective my friends were, but I don't want the dissention anymore. We've forgiven each other, and we're friends again...in some ways, I may even have my big brother back after all...

Career-wise, after what happened last semester (and keeping in mind a few choice examples from this summer, too) I'm going to be approaching theatre much differently this year. I will not be working on all of the shows...in fact, I won't be working on most of them. As much as I like to help people out, this year is for me. It has to be for me. If I don't do what's best for me now, I won't have anything. I just wanted to get that out in the open...the fact of the matter is, this department let me run me run myself into the ground, and then refused to acknowledge all the things I had done right in the face of the one thing I did wrong. If I don't take care of myself, on one else will. I hate to be that selfish this time around, but I have to survive.

I am actually ready to come home.

Song of the Day: Reality Check - "Time is Fading"