*Yawn* I just woke up...it's nice being able to sleep in. I sometimes spend the night at Steve's, and it's so comforting to wake up in the morning, even though he's already left for work, and be surrounded by his stuff. I'm going to have to gank some of his belongings before he leaves, so that I can have a bit of him with me when I go home! ;-)
I'm really encouraged by the way things are going lately...these last few weeks have been really, really good for us, and I'm feeling much more confident about our relationship. I had told some of you on the phone recently that I was concerned about our not being able to talk to each other very well...I ended up just putting it all down in a letter, and I think that worked. Last night he opened up a bit on his last relationship; then we had a really amusing conversation about random things...in many ways, it was like the first time we'd really just chilled for awhile together, just the two of us...no tv, no other people, no phone ringing, no smoke breaks. I was scared at first about the problems I saw with this relationship, but we're both working to correct them, and it really is getting better.
It also helped with the realization that we're both fighting the same demons. Last night he told me he knew I was scared, because I was used to the same treatment he was. You would think it would be disasterous for me to think he was waiting for me to leave him, just as I am waiting for him to leave me...but I also know that he never wants to treat me the way he's been treated, and vice versa...so I know now that he's willing to take the risk on the relationship with me.
The other good news is that he's going to be in Dayton, Ohio for a few weeks getting ready for the tour, and I realized that that's only 6 hours from Blacksburg. So I may get to see him a bit more often than I thought previously. Hehe...but that should be an adventure in itself...me driving 6 hours alone to some place I've never been. :-)
So, here I am, in the midst of getting ready to come home. It's been a fabulous summer, despite all of the bad things happening at work. I'm hearing some promising information about next year's staffing here, so there's still a chance I may come back...with changes, of course. I guess we'll just see how the year goes.
You know, I think I'm coming back as a much different person. Thank you, God, for getting my head back in order.
Song of the Day: Alanis - "21 Things I Want In A Lover"
I'm really encouraged by the way things are going lately...these last few weeks have been really, really good for us, and I'm feeling much more confident about our relationship. I had told some of you on the phone recently that I was concerned about our not being able to talk to each other very well...I ended up just putting it all down in a letter, and I think that worked. Last night he opened up a bit on his last relationship; then we had a really amusing conversation about random things...in many ways, it was like the first time we'd really just chilled for awhile together, just the two of us...no tv, no other people, no phone ringing, no smoke breaks. I was scared at first about the problems I saw with this relationship, but we're both working to correct them, and it really is getting better.
It also helped with the realization that we're both fighting the same demons. Last night he told me he knew I was scared, because I was used to the same treatment he was. You would think it would be disasterous for me to think he was waiting for me to leave him, just as I am waiting for him to leave me...but I also know that he never wants to treat me the way he's been treated, and vice versa...so I know now that he's willing to take the risk on the relationship with me.
The other good news is that he's going to be in Dayton, Ohio for a few weeks getting ready for the tour, and I realized that that's only 6 hours from Blacksburg. So I may get to see him a bit more often than I thought previously. Hehe...but that should be an adventure in itself...me driving 6 hours alone to some place I've never been. :-)
So, here I am, in the midst of getting ready to come home. It's been a fabulous summer, despite all of the bad things happening at work. I'm hearing some promising information about next year's staffing here, so there's still a chance I may come back...with changes, of course. I guess we'll just see how the year goes.
You know, I think I'm coming back as a much different person. Thank you, God, for getting my head back in order.
Song of the Day: Alanis - "21 Things I Want In A Lover"
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