Forgot to mention that Jeremiah came over for lunch...we had a good conversation I guess. I've just been feeling so weird lately, and it was good just to talk about stuff with someone who knows me so well. I still don't feel much better, though...even now I'm feeling really unsure and unconfident about what I should do next. I still can't help but feel like none of this should be affecting me the way that it does...why am I still so vulnerable now? This is so high school crap.