If you're like me, you'll listen to a song or CD all the time for awhile, then never pull it out again once you get tired of it. So what happens when you go searching through your music folder on you computer, or through your CD case? Well, I tried it, and wow, did some good music come out in the mid 90's, lol. So I just played DC Talk's "Jesus Freak" album, and wow...what a great flashback, lol. That album, along with the original Jars of Clay and Plumb albums...those things really kept me alive and going through middle school. Remember "Jesus Freak", the song? That was so the Christian Rock Anthem of '95...ah, the memories...
How much has changed since then. Or has it really? Did I really want it to? I'll never cease to be amazed at how quickly God comes back when you ask Him to. I guess I've been away for awhile. These are lessons and truths that I learned so hard then, and I can't really walk away. This IS the one thing that I know.
I've realized recently that I'm being 'blog-stalked' by someone in particular. Orginally, I was gonna bitch and insult, but after playing through that particular CD tonight, I can't. That's not what I do...even now, even with everything that happened in the past year or so...that's really not me. In a lot of ways, I wish it was. I wish I didn't care. I wish I could indulge. But the truth is, I don't enjoy hatred. I don't wanna hate you anymore. If one of us has to put our pride aside, it's gonna be me. I'm not really sure if this an apology, but more like a statement of the truth.
About a year ago I wrote a song, and I want to quote that now:
"My only comfort is this around my neck
I should pay the price but I don't have the check
All I can say is that I'm forgiven, and so are you
and He'll treat you I lot better than I do"
Some things are bigger than both of us...and I wrote that song to you. I know you know that. And I also know that some things can't be fixed, but the only thing I want to ask is that you'd just think in the future about how your actions effect others. That's all I really have to say...that's all I really care about. I just don't want to see my friends in pain...I wouldn't be saying this if I didn't think that somewhere deep inside that there's something human, and there's something real...if I didn't think that there was a possibility for change. I swear to God, if you're willing to take the chance...I'll be there. I can forgive you, and I will stand by your side and be there for you if you'd strive to reach for something than the everything you're taken for.
"Nothing's unforgivable...or unable to be set free..." - Plumb, "Unforgivable"
How much has changed since then. Or has it really? Did I really want it to? I'll never cease to be amazed at how quickly God comes back when you ask Him to. I guess I've been away for awhile. These are lessons and truths that I learned so hard then, and I can't really walk away. This IS the one thing that I know.
I've realized recently that I'm being 'blog-stalked' by someone in particular. Orginally, I was gonna bitch and insult, but after playing through that particular CD tonight, I can't. That's not what I do...even now, even with everything that happened in the past year or so...that's really not me. In a lot of ways, I wish it was. I wish I didn't care. I wish I could indulge. But the truth is, I don't enjoy hatred. I don't wanna hate you anymore. If one of us has to put our pride aside, it's gonna be me. I'm not really sure if this an apology, but more like a statement of the truth.
About a year ago I wrote a song, and I want to quote that now:
"My only comfort is this around my neck
I should pay the price but I don't have the check
All I can say is that I'm forgiven, and so are you
and He'll treat you I lot better than I do"
Some things are bigger than both of us...and I wrote that song to you. I know you know that. And I also know that some things can't be fixed, but the only thing I want to ask is that you'd just think in the future about how your actions effect others. That's all I really have to say...that's all I really care about. I just don't want to see my friends in pain...I wouldn't be saying this if I didn't think that somewhere deep inside that there's something human, and there's something real...if I didn't think that there was a possibility for change. I swear to God, if you're willing to take the chance...I'll be there. I can forgive you, and I will stand by your side and be there for you if you'd strive to reach for something than the everything you're taken for.
"Nothing's unforgivable...or unable to be set free..." - Plumb, "Unforgivable"
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