So I think I spent enough time last night groveling and wallowing in self-pity to last me for a long time to come. In a way, maybe it's better...got that phase done and over and moving on to the next.

At least I know where I'm at now. And I know what the first thing I'm doing when I get home. The same force that pushed me out to Utah has lit a fire under my ass to get on it again...I guess that's why I'm up so early for once.

In other news, my mom is cooing at a morning dove on the front porch. Will someone please get me out of here?

Anyways, I can already tell that my blog is going to become a stream of quotes for awhile...just the way I do things I guess. I wrote awhile back when I was in the midst of breaking up with Steve and thinking about dating Lance how I felt that the words just can't capture how I feel anymore. So I guess I'll let other people say it for me again this time.

Before I close out my own ramblings, I do want to say that I believe you when you say you don't have any intentions. Neither did Jeremiah with Jenn. And we all know how that worked out. I don't think you're lying to me or leading me on...but there are some things that I just know...and I know I've lost you for good.

"You've said quite enough. I perfectly comprehend your feelings. And now I have only to feel ashamed of what my own have been. Forgive me for having taken up your time, and accept my best wishes for your health and happiness."
- Mr. Darcy, Pride and Prejudice

"Here's a toast to vulenerability
Cheers for abused trust
You could say love is all-consuming
And it just consumed me
This fire that consumes me..."
- The Last Laugh, "Purgatory"

Song of the Day: Alanis Morissette - "You Oughta Know" www.com