About the same time that I wrote my last message, Lance called and left a message. We just got off the phone.

Take a wild guess as to what he said.

Am I ever going to find anyone who is remotely decent? I can't fathom how he could have loved me as he claimed and then turn right around and see someone new. And didn't I just call that one from a mile away? Whatever. I hope things work out with him and his new chick...because if it doesn't he has no more back-up plan.

One of these days he's going to wake up and miss me just as badly as I miss him. One of these days he's going to be lonely and realize what he threw away.

At least now I have the comfort of knowing he's not what he claimed to be. He could not have cared for me nearly as much if he could just move on so easily. Now I have a reason to resent him. Now I have a reason to move on. Now I have a reason not to wait. Now I have a reason to hate.