Heh. So the storm must have knocked out our internet again, so I'm writing this now to be posted later.

I feel better. I forgive you. I'm still hurt and pissed, but I won't loose our friendship. I'll talk to you in August.

I've spent the evening watching re-runs of Star Trek. What a great show. The current episode is when Riker transfers to the Klingon vessel. What a great race, lol. So strong, so honor-driven. People wonder how I survived middle school, lol. Seriously, it was this show. Go ahead and laugh, but there's so much to learn.

One of my favorite books is a Star Trek novel. It's sitting in my apartment now, but I've read it so much I think I can accurately remember one passage in particular that I've been meaning to post here. I think anyone that knows anything about me in the music industry will catch on to the main point immediately.

Valdyr sat in front of the comm link, her heart pounding. Suddenly, Azetbur's powerful presence filled the view. Valdyr gaped, transfixed, not knowing what to say. It reminded her of her great-grandmother's portrait. She finally stammered, "Chancellor..."

Azetbur's face warmed into a small. "Valdyr, it is an honor to see you, and a pleasure."

Valdyr shook her head, "Oh, no, madam chancellor, I have no honor...I betrayed..."

"Nonsense," Azetbur interrupted briskly. "None of our people has more honor. You saved your family's honor from Kamarag's attempt to destroy it. You received an honorable wound in battle." She leaned closer, and spoke more earnestly. "Our people will never forget your sacrifice. Your future will be as bright as the one you have granted for your people. You were born to be a leader, Valdyr, and I will make sure that is what you become. You will be trained as a diplomat under my auspices and tutelage. Our future needs people like you to ensure our future...we need warriors that will fight our battles with words, not weapons. Grow strong, Valdyr. I will talk to you soon." And abruptly, the transmission ended.

Valdyr sat, in shock. She was resigned to giving up her life as a Klingon, but now...she turned to Peter. "You told her about me?"

He shrugged. "I told you about your dreams..." he faltered. "Isn't that what you wanted?"

That is what she wanted before...but now? She turned to Kirk. Was this his way of separating her from his nephew?

McCoy grabbed Kirk’s arm. "Common, Jim...these kids need some time to talk."

Peter jumped up on the bed and sat next to Valdyr silently.

"Is this what you wanted, Peter? You want me to leave you?"

Peter sat still for a moment. "Remember that talk we had, when I said everyone expected me to take the Command track, and you said..."

"That everyone expected me to marry and bear children and spend all my time scheming for their advancement. Yes, I remember."

"Well, Valdyr...if you married me, had my children...one day you'd wake up and realize you'd lived exactly the same life everyone expected you to have on Qo,nos...and then I think you'd be very unhappy."

The truth of his words hit her hard. "But why must our futures keep us so far apart? Why can't things be better than that?"

"I'm not sure they can't be," Peter said. "We'll just have to work at it, and be willing to suffer separations..."

Interesting book. You guys should read it some time...but watch Star Trek VI first, lol. So since I'm on this health kick, too, I started training with my bat'leth again, lmao. It's been awhile since I'd worked with that. It's a lot of work to swing 4 feet of metal around, heh.

Speaking of "Heh", the song is coming along. I finally have the instrumental line programmed...now comes the fun part: vocals. It's hard recording right now because I don't have all the effects Dana’s equipment has to make me sound better, lol. But I'll figure out something, lol. I've got a lot of lines running around in my head, but no real lyrics yet. I hope maybe I can have this song done soon.

So I think I'm gonna do a "Laura Love" night and treat myself to seeing Azkaban again. I could stand to drool over AR a bit more, right? Nikki was talking to me about his voice in an email earlier today, lol...it is so sexy, isn't it? If I ever meet him, I'll be content just to listen to him talk...wish I had the female equivalent...damn chlorine screwing with my vocal chords...and those voice classes with David just never quite caught on. "Oh, how I faint when I of you do write..." Bleh Shakespeare.

Yeah...can't wait to go to Vancouver...lmao. I wanna live like a rockstar!