Oi. What a crazy couple of days.
I should have known that I was swallowing back too much too soon. I thought I was ok with things, but in the end I wasn't, and it all came out last night. I grieved about 3 weeks worth of pain in about 2 hours. A lot of shit happened, and that sucks, but the result was a more calm conversation this morning after the fact that I think did some good.
Today I feel better. I hope I do tomorrow, but I can't predict that safely yet. So things are pretty much closed for now as Lance said in his blog, but at least it's on a better note than it would have been last night. It's not an angry choice; it's preservation of the love that we had...it would be much worse to watch our relationship turn into something ugly and hateful. I'll miss him, but as last night showed me, I have some very wonderful friends very close by. It had been a long time since me and Dana had that kind of talk...he truly is one of my best friends. And I was shocked by how protective Joe seems to be of me (even if it may have been shown in a not so appropriate way). It seems like I'm in good hands even when I'm falling free.
Work is anything but boring. Crazy days yesterday and today, but it's all good. I don't mind putting in overtime or running around. I can use the extra money, and I wouldn't mind losing any more weight, lol.
Me and Dana talked a bit last night about getting a band together, and it just so happens he knows of two guys (bassist and drummer) who have been in a local band but are looking for a guitarist and a singer. So if that works out, it would be awesome. So we'll see how that goes. We spent some time jamming some of the new JCS songs...Leech would be really fun to perform, lol.
Getting ready to do my interview with Thorn! This should be fun...
I should have known that I was swallowing back too much too soon. I thought I was ok with things, but in the end I wasn't, and it all came out last night. I grieved about 3 weeks worth of pain in about 2 hours. A lot of shit happened, and that sucks, but the result was a more calm conversation this morning after the fact that I think did some good.
Today I feel better. I hope I do tomorrow, but I can't predict that safely yet. So things are pretty much closed for now as Lance said in his blog, but at least it's on a better note than it would have been last night. It's not an angry choice; it's preservation of the love that we had...it would be much worse to watch our relationship turn into something ugly and hateful. I'll miss him, but as last night showed me, I have some very wonderful friends very close by. It had been a long time since me and Dana had that kind of talk...he truly is one of my best friends. And I was shocked by how protective Joe seems to be of me (even if it may have been shown in a not so appropriate way). It seems like I'm in good hands even when I'm falling free.
Work is anything but boring. Crazy days yesterday and today, but it's all good. I don't mind putting in overtime or running around. I can use the extra money, and I wouldn't mind losing any more weight, lol.
Me and Dana talked a bit last night about getting a band together, and it just so happens he knows of two guys (bassist and drummer) who have been in a local band but are looking for a guitarist and a singer. So if that works out, it would be awesome. So we'll see how that goes. We spent some time jamming some of the new JCS songs...Leech would be really fun to perform, lol.
Getting ready to do my interview with Thorn! This should be fun...
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