So I got another email from Lance since he's caught up with my blog from yesterday's events.
He had a point with one thing he said, so I am going to clarify it: I made it sound like he and the "new girl" are together. They're not. And if they're still not by the end of July I will print out this entire blog and eat it.
I get so frustrated. To me things are blindingly obvious, but no one else seems to think so...remember the whole Jeremiah/Jenn thing? Was there any point where I wasn't dead on in my foresight? It's like a blind man refusing to be helped out of a burning building by someone with sight. I guess it's just kind of scary to put your faith in someone who claims to know something you can't verify...and I can understand that. I claim to be a Christian, and on a good day I'll tell you about how I think all things happen for a reason. I wish I could feel so complacent and trusting in God all the time. But no matter what, that's still what I believe...even though I think my ability to trust and love has been damaged (yet again) I know that one day I'll find someone...and that he'll be the last someone I ever have to try to find, lol.
I also realized somewhat regretfully that I probably posted too much about this whole thing on here. It's too late now for me to just go back and delete posts because too many people have seen it I'm sure. So I would like to apologize for that, and say for the record that no matter what may have happened in our personal life, Lance is still one of my co-workers and in that capacity I respect him and am very grateful that he's not dragged this into that realm. A lot of people wouldn't have done that, and I appreciate it.
So it ends here. We're no longer a part of each other's lives.
Maybe in a year or so we'll be friends again. Honestly, I hope so. But life goes on, and may I mention his name here no more.
He had a point with one thing he said, so I am going to clarify it: I made it sound like he and the "new girl" are together. They're not. And if they're still not by the end of July I will print out this entire blog and eat it.
I get so frustrated. To me things are blindingly obvious, but no one else seems to think so...remember the whole Jeremiah/Jenn thing? Was there any point where I wasn't dead on in my foresight? It's like a blind man refusing to be helped out of a burning building by someone with sight. I guess it's just kind of scary to put your faith in someone who claims to know something you can't verify...and I can understand that. I claim to be a Christian, and on a good day I'll tell you about how I think all things happen for a reason. I wish I could feel so complacent and trusting in God all the time. But no matter what, that's still what I believe...even though I think my ability to trust and love has been damaged (yet again) I know that one day I'll find someone...and that he'll be the last someone I ever have to try to find, lol.
I also realized somewhat regretfully that I probably posted too much about this whole thing on here. It's too late now for me to just go back and delete posts because too many people have seen it I'm sure. So I would like to apologize for that, and say for the record that no matter what may have happened in our personal life, Lance is still one of my co-workers and in that capacity I respect him and am very grateful that he's not dragged this into that realm. A lot of people wouldn't have done that, and I appreciate it.
So it ends here. We're no longer a part of each other's lives.
Maybe in a year or so we'll be friends again. Honestly, I hope so. But life goes on, and may I mention his name here no more.
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