I woke up out of a nightmare crying this morning. Every once in a while I would have these terrible dreams about me and Jacob breaking up, and I had another one of those last night. Now I'm even more angry. Not just at him, but at myself, because subconciously I knew things were wrong and I just ignored it. I knew he wasn't in it for the long haul, I knew I shouldn't have been so trusting, and it's all my own damn fault. I'm so angry I'm sick to my stomach.

I've been to hell and back at night, and I'll never doubt that, but I can choose to ignore something so obvious in front of me? Gah.

I'm so glad I have band practice tonight because I'm going to explode, in the best sense possible.

Song of the Day: Jay Gordon - "Slept So Long" www.punkstatikparanoia.com