Drama...my majo- wait, that was last year. Anywho, yesterday was just one of those days I guess. Band practice was good, but hard. Lots of quirks to work around. Everyone's got a different style of writing and working, which is good for creativity, but kind of frustrating too. I worry that some of our band mates might be getting bored. There's lots of teaching, lots of sitting around, lots of equipment breaking...it gets hard. I guess this is how it always is, but it seems to me like a lot of our wasted time could be avoided. So I guess we'll see what can be done.

I got home and happened to notice that my favorite one-man crusade is at it again, even after a year. I guess his attempts at destroying a good band ended disasterously, so he's gotta go back to critizing Val the intern. I can't imagine how boring and dismal my own life would have to be in order to start constantly going after people the way he does.

Lots of the Orgy tour dates are up in the air now, or downright cancelled. Apparently a lot of venues starting selling tickets before the band confirmed. I now completely understand why Lou waits until the last minute to post info. What a crazy industry.

Personally, I'm doing OK I guess. They say time heals all wounds, and that's true...and this time I was lucky in that it wasn't a passionate relationship like the one I had with Lance. I didn't think I was going to marry Jacob the way I did with Lance. So a lot of pain was spared on that level. But I think what keeps nagging me is the loss of stability. In a lot of ways, I still feel like I'm floundering around a bit. No one close to talk to...no one to share good news with or to complain about my day to. I've spent most of my life alone, and I fall back into autonomy easily...but I still don't like it.

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