This day has been pretty lazy. I spent most of the morning running sound for a graduation ceremony, and now I'm just sitting here, working on smaller projects. So, good times. Jeremiah called a little while ago so we could plan on what we're gonna do tomorrow. Yay!
So in the last few weeks, I've had at least three of the most unlikely people tell me in some way that they were either intimidated by me or downright scared. I don't know whether to be worried, proud, or insulted. I think I'm proud, ha. I dunno...just not really what I was expecting, especially at this point in my life. This is the happiest I've ever been. At other points in the past I would have been more understanding of those comments. I mean, I know I have a temper, but I wouldn't go so far to say an anger management problem. I've never done anything out of passion that I regret. And I've never hit anyone except in self defense. So, you guys tell me. The internet is a safe place for criticism, right?
Maybe it's just because I never sit still. I don't just accept things as they are. In the last few years I've had to deal with people who are just so damn complacent about everything. There's a difference between being at peace where you are while working towards a better future, versus the total lack of will and ambition to change and the self-fulfilling prophecy of failure before you start. I simply cannot understand that philosophy, nor can I even respect those who sit and do absolutely fucking nothing.
This comes up every few months or so, but especially at this time when a lot of my buddies come home for the summer from college or tours of duty in the military. I always have at least one bitter aquaintance who takes pot shots at me out of sheer jealousy I guess. And I remember...I remember sitting in the hallway at Holy Cross and crying my eyes out, alone. I remember thinking fiercly that one day, all of these people will see my triumphing and wishing they hadn't brushed me off. Well, welcome to my world. Grow some balls and find your own.
So in the last few weeks, I've had at least three of the most unlikely people tell me in some way that they were either intimidated by me or downright scared. I don't know whether to be worried, proud, or insulted. I think I'm proud, ha. I dunno...just not really what I was expecting, especially at this point in my life. This is the happiest I've ever been. At other points in the past I would have been more understanding of those comments. I mean, I know I have a temper, but I wouldn't go so far to say an anger management problem. I've never done anything out of passion that I regret. And I've never hit anyone except in self defense. So, you guys tell me. The internet is a safe place for criticism, right?
Maybe it's just because I never sit still. I don't just accept things as they are. In the last few years I've had to deal with people who are just so damn complacent about everything. There's a difference between being at peace where you are while working towards a better future, versus the total lack of will and ambition to change and the self-fulfilling prophecy of failure before you start. I simply cannot understand that philosophy, nor can I even respect those who sit and do absolutely fucking nothing.
This comes up every few months or so, but especially at this time when a lot of my buddies come home for the summer from college or tours of duty in the military. I always have at least one bitter aquaintance who takes pot shots at me out of sheer jealousy I guess. And I remember...I remember sitting in the hallway at Holy Cross and crying my eyes out, alone. I remember thinking fiercly that one day, all of these people will see my triumphing and wishing they hadn't brushed me off. Well, welcome to my world. Grow some balls and find your own.
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