Gah. I mean, yeah, once I got that phone call yesterday afternoon I knew this was the beginning of the end, so at least I'll give him credit for not dragging this out. There was no way in hell he could have talked her into accepting this, not when she's been the kind of bitch that looks for every little snag for another excuse to deny him custody. This would have been a never-ending point of consternation.

Honestly, I'm not mad at him. In some ways I'm even relieved. I know he's gotta do what he needs to do to take care of his shit. I also know that I'm never gonna see him again, and I hope he realizes that too.

But God help me if I ever meet her...

I mean, OH MY GOD, what the hell kind of mother are you to USE your own damn kid as a puppet in order to ruin and control someone else's life? You make me SICK. I don't think I know anyone in this life more pathetic, and I don't even know you.

And that's really what gets me...is some third person I've never met has out of jealousy made a decision that limited my future. What the fuck is this.

Anyways, enough of my rants, I'm going out drinking with Derek.

EDIT: and, oh, the irony, this is me and Jacob's one year anniversary.

Song of the Day: Alienhead - "Responsible" www.alienheadmusic.com