I love my work schedule, but I realize that in order to do any kind of errands that I have to get up early anyways, because everything is closed by the time I get off work. I desperately need to go to the bank, then I've got to get my car inspected this month - new heat shield, windshield replaced, etc. I've also got to get back to the pharmacy and get my meds refilled. Good news is that my skin is now almost completely clear, even on my stomach. So I'm going to lay out tomorrow and that's gonna be awesome.
The one thing that's starting to bring me down is that all my bills are starting to roll in from the doctor. And that just makes me bitter all over again. *sigh*
I was reading a friend's blog this morning. Someone I haven't talked to in a long time and am not really close to anymore, and I'm sure he doesn't know I still peek in every once in awhile. He was talking about some project he's working on, and how he was upset that his friends didn't seem to be very supportive about it. It was sad, and I know how he feels. But I've realized, and I wish he could too, that how your friends respond to any kind of work you do isn't really indicative of the quality. For instance, I run RAM. No one in my "real life" friends circles could care at all about the music I listen to. Sure, I've gotten some of my friends to like certain bands, but in general, no one's into that scene. And that's totally cool. And while some of my friends have - for me - registered for the forum, bought a shirt, etc., they don't really have anything to do with my business. I know they still support me, I know they still respect the work I do, but they don't have to like it in order to be a good friend. I don't in any way expect everyone to be all RAM'ed out, nor do I feel rejected because no one is, lol.
So I guess what I wish I could say is, don't judge yourself or your friends badly just because you're working on a project and going it alone. Do what you do for your own happiness and self-fulfillment. I enjoy finding good music, listening to new songs, talking to artists, and reviewing albums. And that, in the end, is what matters. Like theatre, do what you do because YOU have to do it - not for recognition, or money, or to somehow prove your worth.
The one thing that's starting to bring me down is that all my bills are starting to roll in from the doctor. And that just makes me bitter all over again. *sigh*
I was reading a friend's blog this morning. Someone I haven't talked to in a long time and am not really close to anymore, and I'm sure he doesn't know I still peek in every once in awhile. He was talking about some project he's working on, and how he was upset that his friends didn't seem to be very supportive about it. It was sad, and I know how he feels. But I've realized, and I wish he could too, that how your friends respond to any kind of work you do isn't really indicative of the quality. For instance, I run RAM. No one in my "real life" friends circles could care at all about the music I listen to. Sure, I've gotten some of my friends to like certain bands, but in general, no one's into that scene. And that's totally cool. And while some of my friends have - for me - registered for the forum, bought a shirt, etc., they don't really have anything to do with my business. I know they still support me, I know they still respect the work I do, but they don't have to like it in order to be a good friend. I don't in any way expect everyone to be all RAM'ed out, nor do I feel rejected because no one is, lol.
So I guess what I wish I could say is, don't judge yourself or your friends badly just because you're working on a project and going it alone. Do what you do for your own happiness and self-fulfillment. I enjoy finding good music, listening to new songs, talking to artists, and reviewing albums. And that, in the end, is what matters. Like theatre, do what you do because YOU have to do it - not for recognition, or money, or to somehow prove your worth.
 | Song of the Day: Concrete - "Mercury" www.myspace.com/concreteband |
2 Comments:
It's not that I don't have great friends, I do... It's more that I'm irked that few people seem to take it seriously. I really want to make a statement with this album... I'm always afraid it's just going to be overlooked. But I say that to myself so that I don't get my hopes up and believe that everyone will have their lives changed forever because of the album. :-)
And I still display my RAM button proudly.
:-)
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