So after a lot of discussion and number crunching, L.A. grad school is going to have to wait for another semester. My parents are still unwilling to help pay, so I'll have to be doing this myself. But that just sets me free in the end, and honestly, I'm already this damn close to being fully self-suficiant anyways. So I'll be spending the next few months really working hard and making the most out of my remaining time here. Going to get another part time job and just stash more and more away. By January I'll be ready with no problem.

I don't know what's going to happen with the band. I'm kind of annoyed, honestly. I had told Derek about my plans to move in September, and he got upset and ended up telling everyone else without my permission. Now, yes, I was going to tell everyone this week, but he made it all sound like it was definate when I had TOLD him I hadn't confirmed yet. So this week he took a new job that he knew would conflict with band practice. Maybe there was misunderstanding there, but personally I'm beginning to wonder how much of his heart is in this thing anymore. I told the guys my reasons for leaving, and there are no hard feelings, and everyone else seems willing to just go on and see how far we can get with the time left. I mean, I really would like to get this demo recorded and play a few shows. This is both me and Jeff's first time in a band, and I think me, him, and Evyl are all interested in just making it worth what we can. You know, we put so much into it since February, it would be a shame not to get something substantial out of it. But anyways, I almost wonder if Derek was using my plans to leave as a cover for his plans to take a new job, almost like the blame wouldn't be on him or something. But I mean, seriously...I care a lot about the band, but in the end...it's just something we're doing for fun. We all have to make ourselves happy and make a living, so if I have to go to grad school or he has to take a new job because of the divorce, people understand and no one is going to fault anyone else for that. But he made some comment last night that he didn't want to bring in any of his songs now that we were going to break up, and then cancelled out on our recording session next weekend. So I'm pretty much thinking this is a lost cause at this point. I'm gonna give it a few days, then call him and ask him whether he's willing to do this or not, because if he isn't, I'm not gonna drag this out when I could be using my Tuesday and Sunday nights making money in another job.

Whew, ok. Moving on. The show on Saturday was great! Got up to C-ville with no problem, and got to the venue right as Interrogation was soundchecking. Yveline gave me a big hug, and we all sat around for an hour or so before the show started and chatted. Great people, her and James. Finally after me downing four beers in rapid succession the show started, and it was great! For it being only their second show ever, it was wonderful! I took a lot of pictures but have yet to import them to my computer, so hopefully a few came out and will be up on RAM soon. The other band, This Means You, was a lot of fun too. The lead singer had bright pink hair and the coolest tatoo on the left side of her leg. So they started out, and she was singing pretty well, and then wham! She starts growling with the best metal singers out there. Haha, you go girl! Good times.

Song of the Day: Fluffy Starr - "NV" www.fluffystarr.com