Wow, I stayed up way too late.
I ended up asking Jacob for his input on the new RAM site, since I needed a mac user to test, so we ended up chatting most of the evening, which was great. Good conversation, no bad feelings...so I think we're on our way to being friends again. Not pushing though, just taking it easy. But it was really nice to just talk again...I miss doing that. In a way, though, it was kinda sad in a way how easily it came. Kinda reminded me a bit of how much we had left behind us, but I guess most of that feeling is just residual from me already being an emotional basketcase right now. So, in that light, considering my state and the fact we didn't fight at all, I'm pretty damn proud, hah! But seriously, it's a good start.
We also had the impending discussion of "Yeah, I wrote an angry song about you, can I use it" for both of our upcoming projects. I think we got it established that we both respect each other's feelings, and also look at the songs as bits of our past experiences, and not how we feel now. So who are we to hinder good music, eh? Alienhead is using that angry song I wrote about Lance, but it's not really about him anymore, you know? So, it's ok. It might be wierd for us at first, but we'll get through it. We learn from these things, right?
Also been talking to Jesse for awhile. First time since hell broke loose on that front. So it's good to hear from him, and kinda hear his perspective on things. *sigh* I just wish things hadn't had to end this way. It's so frustrating to know that things could have been better. But no one was interested in trying but me. Story of my life, eh?
I want to be at peace, and be loved.
Quote of the night:
[02:52] IamIndieJake: midi has a place and that place is cell ringers
I ended up asking Jacob for his input on the new RAM site, since I needed a mac user to test, so we ended up chatting most of the evening, which was great. Good conversation, no bad feelings...so I think we're on our way to being friends again. Not pushing though, just taking it easy. But it was really nice to just talk again...I miss doing that. In a way, though, it was kinda sad in a way how easily it came. Kinda reminded me a bit of how much we had left behind us, but I guess most of that feeling is just residual from me already being an emotional basketcase right now. So, in that light, considering my state and the fact we didn't fight at all, I'm pretty damn proud, hah! But seriously, it's a good start.
We also had the impending discussion of "Yeah, I wrote an angry song about you, can I use it" for both of our upcoming projects. I think we got it established that we both respect each other's feelings, and also look at the songs as bits of our past experiences, and not how we feel now. So who are we to hinder good music, eh? Alienhead is using that angry song I wrote about Lance, but it's not really about him anymore, you know? So, it's ok. It might be wierd for us at first, but we'll get through it. We learn from these things, right?
Also been talking to Jesse for awhile. First time since hell broke loose on that front. So it's good to hear from him, and kinda hear his perspective on things. *sigh* I just wish things hadn't had to end this way. It's so frustrating to know that things could have been better. But no one was interested in trying but me. Story of my life, eh?
I want to be at peace, and be loved.
Quote of the night:
[02:52] IamIndieJake: midi has a place and that place is cell ringers
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