I think the major downer about having a good vacation is that when you come back, it's a slap in the face how miserable you were before you left. God, this place sucks.

I've been thinking a lot more about my immediate future and the things I need to get done in the next few months. Getting nervous I guess. Going back to the convo I had with Rafe a few weeks ago, about relationships, stability, and careers...I think I've figured out that my biggest problem is that I want it all...lately I've been sacrificing my career for stability. Now I'll be sacrificing potential stability for my career. I guess the easy answer is that I should focus on my career first, and look for stability and a husband later. But dammit, I want it all, and I want it now! Lol. I think over the last few years I've gotten a lot more patient, but it still doesn't change the fact that I'm so unsatisfied now...and that I know simply moving isn't going to solve it right away.

I keep thinking that God's trying to tell me something big and I'm completely missing it.

Moving on. Had probably the wierdest question asked me at band practice tonight. I don't think I can even bring myself to repost it. Ok, so I have a band with a bunch of guys. You can guess the subject. Anyhow, all I can say is...damn, I love my guys, but can you really be that uneducated? You can IM me for details, it's a good story.

But today was good. I slept for 15 hours today. And then our cable is back. So I'm gonna drink a beer and watch Family Guy now.