I was gonna write a long post about some shit that had been bugging me lately, and then I talked to one of my buds and realized some old fights are nothing compared to what things could be if I were in his situation. Oi, people are crazy!

I can't change the past. I've apologized for the things I've fucked up on, and I'm sorry for any pain I caused. I don't regret any love I ever shared, and I want you to know it was all genuine. I can't convince everyone of that, but it's over now, and my life is changing...and if I have to leave you behind on that note, then I will.

But there are plenty of wonderful people in my life right now, and I think tonight made me more appreciative of what I do have now. These last few weeks I've been bitching about what I don't have, but let me take the time to be grateful for what I do have. (This should have been a Thanksgiving post...bad timing, eh?)

Even though I have to leave him in a few weeks, my old man has made these last few months bearable, and I really love him for that. I can't imagine what state I'd be in if I were alone right now. And to the friends that have stood beside me, especially with the events of this year and not judged me, or at least not walked away when they disagreed with me - people like Corrie, Lisa, Derek, Chris, Dana, Joe, Jeremiah, Nikki, Mike, Lance...I don't say it enough, but you guys are wonderful friends, and I have so much love and respect for all of you.

Ok, now that I feel all warm and fuzzy inside, I'm gonna go have a beer and watch Adult Swim.