I've been blogging since 2002, but I'm beginning to think that it's about time to wrap this up. I know most people have stopped reading, and to be honest, maybe it's time to just disappear for good once I go.

Feeling pretty disgruntled on a lot of levels right now. Still pissed I didn't even get a denial letter from that job I applied for, and then someone else in the industry kind of indirectly stabbed me in the back today. I know it wasn't intentional, but the effect is still the same. Loosing such a big chunk of business was not what needed to happen right now. I'm also sad because I was supposed to hang out with my old man tonight but the kids got in the way again. *sigh*

Me and my old man did talk for a bit tonight, and kinda finalized things for what happens after I go. I know it's best that I move on with my life, but I honestly was kinda hoping he'd just tell me he loved me and wanted me for himself...

I think I'm really just down because I'm getting nervous at what lies before me (I only technically work another 5 days), and because in general this time of year blows. So much useless crap I have to deal with. You can call me a scrooge, whatever...I wish I could be happy right now, but this time of year has never been pleasant.

Except for last year. I spent most of it with Jacob. That was probably the best New Year's I've ever had. It's amazing after all this time and two ex's later, I still ache for you. :-(

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