This last week or so has just been stressful. Not really sure why, other than I've completely changed my life and environment, lol. I guess it's the same old story...I ditched a lot of old problems and frustrations, but gained some new ones, too.
My biggest source of angst right now is that I'm a little annoyed with myself in regards to RAM. To make a long story short, I guess I pretty much panicked lately over my finances so I jumped into two jobs in order to keep myself floating. Nothing wrong with that, except that it puts me right back into the position I was back home and was unable to take the business farther because I was too busy with my "real" jobs.
I have to do my LLC forms. And I have to open my online store. THIS WEEK, DAMMIT.
But, to put it in perspective, the jobs I have now are good. Theatre is good, despite the little snow bullshit this weekend. And right there I'm making the same amount of money I was at the college. And work with the video production company is coming along - still haven't gotten a client yet, but we'll see. I'm gonna give it a month or so to see if it pays off. No case to worry yet, really.
I try to keep my mind on the things that ARE good. My condo rocks. My roommate rocks. Driving over the bridge into DC is a self-esteem boost everyday. When I see the Washington monument it reminds me that I AM here, I DID make it this far, and that this IS the land of opportunity. I just need to jump on it a little harder.
I have a feeling tomorrow is gonna be a day of finality in an aspect that shouldn't be too hard to figure out. It's probably better this way, in the long run, but it's still hard when at the end of it all I always end up doubting everything that was there to begin with.
Can you get more cryptic? Yep. But I'll be more plain tomorrow I'm sure.
In other news, me and Corrie are taking V-day into our own hands tomorrow. We're getting completely "prom"-ed out, and going to the pub. Alllllllllriiiiiiiiiiiight.
My biggest source of angst right now is that I'm a little annoyed with myself in regards to RAM. To make a long story short, I guess I pretty much panicked lately over my finances so I jumped into two jobs in order to keep myself floating. Nothing wrong with that, except that it puts me right back into the position I was back home and was unable to take the business farther because I was too busy with my "real" jobs.
I have to do my LLC forms. And I have to open my online store. THIS WEEK, DAMMIT.
But, to put it in perspective, the jobs I have now are good. Theatre is good, despite the little snow bullshit this weekend. And right there I'm making the same amount of money I was at the college. And work with the video production company is coming along - still haven't gotten a client yet, but we'll see. I'm gonna give it a month or so to see if it pays off. No case to worry yet, really.
I try to keep my mind on the things that ARE good. My condo rocks. My roommate rocks. Driving over the bridge into DC is a self-esteem boost everyday. When I see the Washington monument it reminds me that I AM here, I DID make it this far, and that this IS the land of opportunity. I just need to jump on it a little harder.
I have a feeling tomorrow is gonna be a day of finality in an aspect that shouldn't be too hard to figure out. It's probably better this way, in the long run, but it's still hard when at the end of it all I always end up doubting everything that was there to begin with.
Can you get more cryptic? Yep. But I'll be more plain tomorrow I'm sure.
In other news, me and Corrie are taking V-day into our own hands tomorrow. We're getting completely "prom"-ed out, and going to the pub. Alllllllllriiiiiiiiiiiight.
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