So things are at peace again. Things between me and my friend are good; we hung out tonight after work (this time to IHOP for brownie sundays...much less of a temptation than at a bar for beer, lol.) and talked about stuff. Did the obligatory "Are you ok?" "Yeah I'm fine." convo, and concluded this week's incident. I am really glad that things between him and his girl are ok, and that me and him can be friends without it being awkward. We joked and laughed like we had always done (dirty-minded theatre techs that we are) so I feel very happy and resolved right now.
In other news, I spoke too soon in regards to Sean. I guess I figured after almost 3 weeks of not speaking that the avoidance was mutual, but he messaged me today. So...damn. *sigh*
I was talking to one of my new buds up here, Gage, and though he doesn't know me very well, he does know a bit about some of my more recent relationships and my tendency to give out love in difficult situations. So he knows the basics about the whole Sean deal, so when I mentioned the message I got today, he looked at me and said "Maybe now it's time you stopped putting yourself out on a limb for these people. I know you gotta do what you think is right, but I know that I'd sleep better at night knowing you weren't doing this." First of all, awww. :-) Secondly, sometimes I think that too, but speaking of sleeping better at night...I still hold that no matter how screwed up some of these situations get, I still sleep much better than I imagine most people do, because I can go to bed at night with a clear conscious, probably at least 95% of the time. I think that's pretty damn good. And to me, that's still one of the things that matters most in my life.
The ideal would be to meet a guy who had no situation that would require me going out on a limb for him in the first place. :-)
In conclusion, I would like to say that one of my favorite things about my friend Chris is that he always seems to send me an email in response to my blogging at the times when things seem to hit their peak, lol. And that he always manages to say things that both help me stay strong, and make me smile. So thanks. *hugs*
In other news, I spoke too soon in regards to Sean. I guess I figured after almost 3 weeks of not speaking that the avoidance was mutual, but he messaged me today. So...damn. *sigh*
I was talking to one of my new buds up here, Gage, and though he doesn't know me very well, he does know a bit about some of my more recent relationships and my tendency to give out love in difficult situations. So he knows the basics about the whole Sean deal, so when I mentioned the message I got today, he looked at me and said "Maybe now it's time you stopped putting yourself out on a limb for these people. I know you gotta do what you think is right, but I know that I'd sleep better at night knowing you weren't doing this." First of all, awww. :-) Secondly, sometimes I think that too, but speaking of sleeping better at night...I still hold that no matter how screwed up some of these situations get, I still sleep much better than I imagine most people do, because I can go to bed at night with a clear conscious, probably at least 95% of the time. I think that's pretty damn good. And to me, that's still one of the things that matters most in my life.
The ideal would be to meet a guy who had no situation that would require me going out on a limb for him in the first place. :-)
In conclusion, I would like to say that one of my favorite things about my friend Chris is that he always seems to send me an email in response to my blogging at the times when things seem to hit their peak, lol. And that he always manages to say things that both help me stay strong, and make me smile. So thanks. *hugs*
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