I think I'm starting to get used to being an employee again...I miss my pink hair, I miss the theatre, and I miss being free...but I can't deny that there is something relaxing and peaceful about having a steady paycheck I don't have to constantly look for - or really work that hard for, either, lol. They keep us busy there, and there are lots of small ongoing projects, but it's laid back...no rush...we just tackle projects as we need to.
Lately I've been working on information for a new lighting inventory for the sanctuary. So Tuesday I spent most of the day measuring the space, then working out throw distances from the yet-to-be-built catwalk to figure out which fixtures would be optimal. Today I looked up pricing info on said fixtures, then worked on reorganizing our boxes of cables and adapters in the office. Not too bad.
I do have to say, though, that working at a church of all places gave me a whole new level of self-awareness. I was talking to Sean about this, and mentioned I had to tone down my "crude personality", and he told me he didn't think of me like that much at all...which is true. In comparison to a lot of people I know, lol, I'm pretty tame. But in comparison to the church...I realized how much of my personality is "subversive". So I guess I'm in the place where I'm trying to balance standing up for my individuality vs. being corporately acceptable.
God, that makes me hate working a real job again.
On the flip side...maybe there is a bit of a problem when the majority of my communication has been cussing, bad jokes, and humping my coworkers' legs. Maybe I do need to find a higher and more sophesticated means of expressing myself and showing affection.
Though I will always miss humping Gage's leg.
Still, there are things I'm holding on to. I fixed my hair to something more acceptable by me...a deep cherry red...still natural enough for work, but fun for me. I wear nice clothes...but they're still black. I wear my studded belts. I have some fun make-up. I pick on my boss. (I told one of the ministers the other day that my iPod was for when I got tired of listening to him talk.)
I guess some compromises still have to be made, even though I have come so far. Because, really, taking this job was all about me saving up money while I'm waiting for one of my albums to come out, so that I have the funds to support a release. Just biding my time, waiting...
Speaking of waiting, I got some disappointing news the other day about someone who is not touring out here in September after all. This is what I get for crushing on a rockstar 2,000 miles away. *sigh*
I finally got Plumb's new album. Sounds really great so far.
"Because in the end
What leaves you broken
In the end
Makes you better."
Lately I've been working on information for a new lighting inventory for the sanctuary. So Tuesday I spent most of the day measuring the space, then working out throw distances from the yet-to-be-built catwalk to figure out which fixtures would be optimal. Today I looked up pricing info on said fixtures, then worked on reorganizing our boxes of cables and adapters in the office. Not too bad.
I do have to say, though, that working at a church of all places gave me a whole new level of self-awareness. I was talking to Sean about this, and mentioned I had to tone down my "crude personality", and he told me he didn't think of me like that much at all...which is true. In comparison to a lot of people I know, lol, I'm pretty tame. But in comparison to the church...I realized how much of my personality is "subversive". So I guess I'm in the place where I'm trying to balance standing up for my individuality vs. being corporately acceptable.
God, that makes me hate working a real job again.
On the flip side...maybe there is a bit of a problem when the majority of my communication has been cussing, bad jokes, and humping my coworkers' legs. Maybe I do need to find a higher and more sophesticated means of expressing myself and showing affection.
Though I will always miss humping Gage's leg.
Still, there are things I'm holding on to. I fixed my hair to something more acceptable by me...a deep cherry red...still natural enough for work, but fun for me. I wear nice clothes...but they're still black. I wear my studded belts. I have some fun make-up. I pick on my boss. (I told one of the ministers the other day that my iPod was for when I got tired of listening to him talk.)
I guess some compromises still have to be made, even though I have come so far. Because, really, taking this job was all about me saving up money while I'm waiting for one of my albums to come out, so that I have the funds to support a release. Just biding my time, waiting...
Speaking of waiting, I got some disappointing news the other day about someone who is not touring out here in September after all. This is what I get for crushing on a rockstar 2,000 miles away. *sigh*
I finally got Plumb's new album. Sounds really great so far.
"Because in the end
What leaves you broken
In the end
Makes you better."
 | Song of the Day: Plumb - "Better" www.plumbinfo.com |
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