I think maybe I'm a better person than I thought.

(Or maybe just earnestly praying to God quite a bit more often these days is helping.)

Anyways, I went up to Maryland on Monday to see P9 play. I hung out with the guys until they went on stage, then me and Joe just cuddled and talked and talked and talked after their set, which totally rocked. I wasn't scared, I wasn't hurt, I just wanted him to feel better. I guess I'm not so selfish after all.

God, I love him so much.

On the other side of things, remember that other guy I mentioned? Yeah, not so much:

"You're totally fucking with me, aren't you?"
"What? I fuck with all my female friends who don't have boyfriends..."

Whatever. We're still friends; I don't think he meant harm. But seriously...what is it with people these days who totally lead others on? I wasn't reading into this...he kissed me several times, so what was I supposed to think? What a waste of hope, eh?

In financial news, I am so broke it hurts. Not kidding. I have no idea how I'm gonna get through this next month.

But finally, that big news I've been mentioned has been confirmed: I'm a model for Coffin Cases. Rock!