[trading nervousness for expectation]
So, finally, all seems to be coming together at last for Nuclearfest. I've sold more presale tickets than I expected, and it seems even more are planning on attending. Got my posters this morning, and a lot of press is being done to cover the event. I think, in the end, this was indeed a good idea after all.
JSun is out of town for a bit for AF training. He's only been gone for about a day and a half, but I miss him already. He doesn't get very good cell reception up there, so we can't even really talk. Just the occasional text message. I wish he could have been in town for N-fest, but at the same time I'm so busy I wouldn't have had much time to spend with him. What's gonna be bad is after the festival is over and I have little to worry about. Then I'm gonna be lonely, lol.
I got an email from a former friend who I had dropped communication with after he had done something that I had found highly disrespectful. He apologized for what had happened, so I think I may hang out with him sometime soon and try to rebuild that friendship. He's not a bad guy in general I suppose, and if he's willing to try to make amends, who am I to hold a grudge?
...which reminds me of another email I got about a week or two ago and hadn't yet been able to respond to. I'm not ignoring you, I'm just up to my eyeballs with Nuclearfest and xUBERx's album production.
As for another blast from the past, I scanned through a bulletin that Lance posted on myspace today. His wife is expecting their child anytime now, and it sounds like the pregnancy is a bit of rollercoaster ride, heh. I hope all that turns out well for them...though it's still kinda wierd watching so many of my friends and ex's getting married and starting families.
I guess it kinda makes me think more about what I want out of this life. Me and JSun have been together for almost two months now. (Seriously? It just feels like two weeks ago he was bugging me about Goth Prom, hehehe.) And like I wrote about it in the beginning...there's just something peaceful about things this time around. I think there might be the potential for something a lot more permanent here. I guess, in regards to my business, I feel like I've accomplished a lot of what I had set out to do, and maybe now I'm starting to look a little closer to my heart for other means of fullfillment.
Part of that comes from the realization today that part of why I'm feeling so good about Nuclearfest, RAM, xUBERx's album, etc., is because I'm seeing now that RAM isn't just me anymore. I'm surrounded by people who have donated their time and talents to help support the cause. In the past I've had to sacrifice my time spent with friends in order to pursue my career. Now I see that it's my friends' time that supports my career.
So maybe I should pay a bit more attention to the people I care about, eh?
JSun is out of town for a bit for AF training. He's only been gone for about a day and a half, but I miss him already. He doesn't get very good cell reception up there, so we can't even really talk. Just the occasional text message. I wish he could have been in town for N-fest, but at the same time I'm so busy I wouldn't have had much time to spend with him. What's gonna be bad is after the festival is over and I have little to worry about. Then I'm gonna be lonely, lol.
I got an email from a former friend who I had dropped communication with after he had done something that I had found highly disrespectful. He apologized for what had happened, so I think I may hang out with him sometime soon and try to rebuild that friendship. He's not a bad guy in general I suppose, and if he's willing to try to make amends, who am I to hold a grudge?
...which reminds me of another email I got about a week or two ago and hadn't yet been able to respond to. I'm not ignoring you, I'm just up to my eyeballs with Nuclearfest and xUBERx's album production.
As for another blast from the past, I scanned through a bulletin that Lance posted on myspace today. His wife is expecting their child anytime now, and it sounds like the pregnancy is a bit of rollercoaster ride, heh. I hope all that turns out well for them...though it's still kinda wierd watching so many of my friends and ex's getting married and starting families.
I guess it kinda makes me think more about what I want out of this life. Me and JSun have been together for almost two months now. (Seriously? It just feels like two weeks ago he was bugging me about Goth Prom, hehehe.) And like I wrote about it in the beginning...there's just something peaceful about things this time around. I think there might be the potential for something a lot more permanent here. I guess, in regards to my business, I feel like I've accomplished a lot of what I had set out to do, and maybe now I'm starting to look a little closer to my heart for other means of fullfillment.
Part of that comes from the realization today that part of why I'm feeling so good about Nuclearfest, RAM, xUBERx's album, etc., is because I'm seeing now that RAM isn't just me anymore. I'm surrounded by people who have donated their time and talents to help support the cause. In the past I've had to sacrifice my time spent with friends in order to pursue my career. Now I see that it's my friends' time that supports my career.
So maybe I should pay a bit more attention to the people I care about, eh?
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