[we want a revolution]
Got a Stromkern song stuck in my head.
Anyways, things are good on my end for the most part. If you haven't been keeping up with my random posts on LiveJournal (god I need to repost them in here more often), things went really well with Nuclearfest. I didn't quite break even, but I didn't loose too much money, and the event itself ran very smoothly. So more things along those lines will be coming soon.
I'm going to Blacksun later on this week with JSun. Should be a good trip. I hope vending goes ok, but I am indeed looking forward to the vacation.
Things with me and JSun are ok; we kinda had it out about a week ago after he got rediculously wasted at the bar (when he was the one who drove) and couldn't understand why I was upset. I dunno...I guess for the most part when I drink, I'm still quite aware of myself, and know when I've had too much. I don't understand people who loose control, though I guess it really isn't his fault that his body reacts badly when mine does not. At the same time, he needs to realize that because he does react badly to alcohol, that he needs to avoid that situation to begin with. But, I think this is just the beginning of an uphill climb unfortunately, that's going to result in a lot more instances of me taking the keys. *sigh*
It's frustrating, because other than this, he's great. I know he cares about me, even though things are still moving slowly emotionally given the situation he just got out of. He treats me very well, and he's very affectionate and emotionally accessible. He understands my lifestyle and time restraints...and, Christ, he deals with my skin condition better than just about anyone. I just hope we can get to a good resolution for the excessive drinking...because this really is something that I cannot compromise on.
In other news, I stumbled upon an online posting the other day that seems to point to a continuing downward spiral in a friend who is now far from my reach. All. I. can. do. is. pray. I know that might indeed the best thing I could have done to begin with...but god I feel so helpless...
Anyways, things are good on my end for the most part. If you haven't been keeping up with my random posts on LiveJournal (god I need to repost them in here more often), things went really well with Nuclearfest. I didn't quite break even, but I didn't loose too much money, and the event itself ran very smoothly. So more things along those lines will be coming soon.
I'm going to Blacksun later on this week with JSun. Should be a good trip. I hope vending goes ok, but I am indeed looking forward to the vacation.
Things with me and JSun are ok; we kinda had it out about a week ago after he got rediculously wasted at the bar (when he was the one who drove) and couldn't understand why I was upset. I dunno...I guess for the most part when I drink, I'm still quite aware of myself, and know when I've had too much. I don't understand people who loose control, though I guess it really isn't his fault that his body reacts badly when mine does not. At the same time, he needs to realize that because he does react badly to alcohol, that he needs to avoid that situation to begin with. But, I think this is just the beginning of an uphill climb unfortunately, that's going to result in a lot more instances of me taking the keys. *sigh*
It's frustrating, because other than this, he's great. I know he cares about me, even though things are still moving slowly emotionally given the situation he just got out of. He treats me very well, and he's very affectionate and emotionally accessible. He understands my lifestyle and time restraints...and, Christ, he deals with my skin condition better than just about anyone. I just hope we can get to a good resolution for the excessive drinking...because this really is something that I cannot compromise on.
In other news, I stumbled upon an online posting the other day that seems to point to a continuing downward spiral in a friend who is now far from my reach. All. I. can. do. is. pray. I know that might indeed the best thing I could have done to begin with...but god I feel so helpless...
 | Song of the Day: Stromkern - "Stand Up" www.radio-active-music.com |
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i misssssssssss you. i'm home in one week. i need you.
~Colleen
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