:-P

Ugh, I hate homework. Struggling with a floorplan that Randy will probably hate anyways, and haven't touched my astrophysics write-up.

My back is KILLING me. Never in my life have I hurt this much after strike, lol. Meh.

Song of the Day (for Lance) : Alanis - "Head Over Feet" www.alanis.com

mindbinge: listening to a demo
Zeta Vande: whose?
mindbinge: [insert band name here]
Zeta Vande: never heard of them
mindbinge: yeah probably never will either from the sounds of this demo
mindbinge: lmao
Zeta Vande: hahahaha

I had lots of fun last night; Renee was in town so I joined her, Jannette, Corrie, Kate, and a few others down at the Underground. They started to teach me how to play darts. I suck, but it was fun.

So yeah, afterwards Lance did come and visit yesterday, for all of you guys paying attention to my dramatic love life. :-) And wow...I have never in my life felt so good about someone new. Everything just feels so right. He's so sweet, and kind, and gentle, and fun to talk to...yeah, it was a good night. Think I'll be heading down his way next weekend. :-D

So I did get up early with the fear of there being a matinee, but no, no Saturday afternoon shows this time around. I get so confused, lol. So now I'm just killing time until Jeremiah gets done with his gaming so that I can spend some time with him before he heads off to Chicago. I'll miss my big brother. :-(

Then tonight Lee and Cullen are throwing a big Mardi Gras party at their place...it's gonna be soooooooo much fun.

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Leave Me Out" www.punkstatikparanoia.com

Another good day. And apparently Renee is in town, so I'll be hanging out with her and Jannette and Corrie tonight...and maybe a certain someone else...more on that later. ;-)

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Make Up Your Mind" www.punkstatikparanoia.com

FINALLY my copy of the retail version of PSP came today. Yay! So yeah, when you get your copy, I'm on the last inside page in the "This could not have been possible without:" section. Valdyr <-- that's me. I rock.

Getting ready to drive back to Tech...waiting for my mom to get home first. My grandma was put in the hospital this evening. I don't know too much yet. They think she might have gotten confused and took too much medicine, and on top of that may have pneumonia. :-(

"Wild cat colony? You made it sound like the pilgrims landed in your backyard."
;-)

Yesterday was great. I got my HODAT paper done by midnight, then talked to everyone's favorite webmaster on the phone for awhile. *hugs Lance*

Supposed to snow today...3 to 6 inches last time I checked. I need to bring my sled from home. That would rock. Turner Street would be a great ride...hmn...

Song of the Day: Poe - "Hey Pretty" www.realpoe.com

So yeah, having a VERY good day. :-)

Hanging out at dimmer check, and looking forward to a good dinner at India Garden with Jeremiah. Haven't eaten there in so long...I'm having a chicken tikka masala withdraw. *huggles big brother*

Tonight I've got that stupid paper to write. At least it's only 7 pages this time, instead of the usual 14 or so. Allllriiiiight. Probably gonna help Corrie dye her hair tonight, too. :-) Fun times...

Nothing like good friends to pick you back up again.

Song of the Day: Redrum - "Love on Venus" www.redrumonline.com

Today was so much fun! It's the official release date of Orgy's PSP, so I got all dressed up and walked around campus for it; it was great! Here's a pic:

And yes, it's true...Dana picked up his copy today and brought it by, and we're both in the thank you section of the CD booklet. I LOVE D1!!!!!
Not much else going on...me and Corrie are heading downtown for Mardi Gras...should be fun. Except the whole class thing tomorrow. :-D

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Vague" www.punkstatikparanoia.com

Damn, the new Jimmie's Chicken Shack song, "Falling Out" (w/ Aaron Lewis of Staind) is amazing. Dana, you're right - it sounds a lot like our stuff, lol. And I DO like your lyrics, lol. I just remember you saying once that you felt like you never communicated everything you wanted to say. Too complex? Damn straight. I'm so riding the fence on this one, and I hate it. That contest looks cool...we really need to get together and work on some stuff, especially since Fluffy liked it, :-D

So no-go with the interview tonight. We're rescheduling later on...

(Who I am, who am I? I can't see, but I'm not blind. You took your love away from me, but don't understand that I can't believe.)

I'm on my knees and I'm begging you
Please...

Please don't take me for granted this time
Please don't see me as a failure
Please don't leave me tomorrow

Like I know you will (and I let you in anyways.)
Like you think you can (and you won't look back.)
You'll never know what I could have been to you, had you just stayed.

- The Last Laugh, "A Day Longer"

Yay! My PSP stickers just arrived in the mail, which is perfect, since now I can hand those out along with my ever-breeding supply of D1 stickers tomorrow as I walk around all Orgified. Tomorrow is gonna rock!

In other news, it seems like I got undercut in a lighting design I was supposed to do in the next few months. I hate Virginia. I need to go someplace where there's not an unbreakable monopoly. Meh.

Not much else going on...waiting to see if that interview tonight is really gonna happen, lol. *hugs Lou* And people are getting all anal on the OMB. What's that about?

And, Lance, I was rereading what I wrote yesterday, and it occured to me how much more funny it would have been if I had left the ending 't' off the "trout buddy" statement. Yeah, I'm a freak. :-D

Off to scene shop land...

Song of the Day: Alanis - "Front Row" www.alanis.com

So went home and got my advanced PSP. Autographed by Amir. Plus they threw in a PSP sticker AND and Opticon sticker. That was pretty cool.

Getting ready to head back to Tech and work on the HODAT paper some more. Hope I don't have anything due in Design Lab tomorrow. Anyways...

Lance, are you OK? Where has my trout buddy disappeared to?

...lost in a state of madness...

So just sitting here in the booth, waiting to do some preshow checks before going home and back to bed. Last night went downhill after I posted last. Like, nothing specific happened really, to set me off, just a bunch of little things...being ignored, being insulted...one of these days people will realize that you can't take your friends for granted. Well, at least not me.

Waiting to hear how Fluffy's show went last night. Ahh...I wish I lived in Vancouver...

Today I get to finish with what posters I didn't get around to yesterday, finish cleaning my apt., and write my HODAT rough draft. Maybe go home and pick up my advance copy of PSP. Go me.

Song of the Day: Alanis - "Fear Of Bliss" www.alanis.com

You know, I usually never have a problem communicating. But right now, I just can't think of how to get these ideas outside of myself. Trying to write some lyrics, but nothing is write. I think I'm turning into Dana.

Anyways, here's a few losing ideas...I'll probably delete this post tomorrow.

Always looking outside myself
Not for what I need but for what to blame
Unconscious of my own results
It was never my fault

On the verge of making another line of mistakes
I opened these eyes again
And realized that it's not you
Your actions are only wrong in my own conculsions

It's my interpretations
Not your mistaken communications
That have gotten me here...gotten me in this mess

Maybe there's a better life
But not for me
Not until I can be
Something bigger than one

It's my interpretations
Not your mistaken communications
That have gotten me here

And I don't want to be here...

- The Last Laugh, "Something Bigger Than One"

So the show actually went well this evening. Everyone bow down to me, lol. Nah, it's all good.

And I am about half-way through cleaning my apt. I'm afraid of my sink though. I don't wanna know what might be breeding in it. Anyways...

Just chilling at the PAB this evening. Not much else to say. Feeling better, if still a little lost. Meh.

Spladam84: rad sheeyat
Zeta Vande: lmao....there you go with your quasi-ghettoness

Me: Well, I'm a theatre major, what am I supposed to do?
Jeremiah: Well, something theatrical.
Me: That WAS theatrical.
Jeremiah: You could light someone on fire and call it guerilla theatre.

I'm over it. That's all I'm saying...you guys can fill in the rest.

So it looks like I might be interview Paige on Monday night. Just waiting for Lou to get back to me on that one. I had so much fun last time talking to Bobby, so I'm sure this one will be just as great. I'm also in the process of wallpapering campus today with the PSP posters. I know it seems rather late, but then I realized that since things stay up for about 3 days around here before getting ripped down or covered up, that this was better timing. So yeah. Then, on Tuesday, I'm gonna get all glammed up and use my last 2 posters on a sandwich board and walk around campus like that. Yeah, I rock. I love being a theatre major...means I can get away with stuff like that and still be socially acceptable.

Then I have to head over to Studio to figure out why the show went to hell and back last night. Crazy lighting issues. We'll see what happens, I guess. I told everyone I'd stay for the show tonight in case anything else happens, so I guess that means I won't be able to hang out with Joe and Dana tonight afterall. :(

And I still need to clean my room.

Song of the Day: Alanis - "Bent For You" www.alanis.com

Forgot to mention that Jeremiah came over for lunch...we had a good conversation I guess. I've just been feeling so weird lately, and it was good just to talk about stuff with someone who knows me so well. I still don't feel much better, though...even now I'm feeling really unsure and unconfident about what I should do next. I still can't help but feel like none of this should be affecting me the way that it does...why am I still so vulnerable now? This is so high school crap.

Wow, last night was soo much fun. I got to talk to Fluffy Starr on the phone for awhile, and that was really cool. I can't wait to meet her in person. Then we all went out after opening night to the Cellar, and it was great hanging out with everyone. Then we got back here and talked to Lance for awhile before crashing out for the night. *huggles Lance*

So yeah, I'm going to attempt to clean my apt. today. We'll see how that goes. :-D

I just wanna go home and sleep. I'm so tired.

So the protest went rather well...the YR never showed up, and I think the LGBTA did a good job of being very articulate in their points. There was a lot of media there, and me and Corrie got some good stuff I think. We'll see how it goes.

Gotta head over and do dimmer check in a minute. All the joys of being ME. Nah, I like it...I like this career. But on the flip side of things, Nikki, I hope things get better. *Hugs*

So I'm just in a weird mood right now...caught between two places that I sorta want to be. But as I look at this logically, I'm being rather stupid. Nothing that I (might) want to happen will, either way. A month from now, it'll still be just me. And I always know that. I just wish that if this is how it's supposed to be, then, God, why won't you please take these needs away?

"You know I could try the chase
But in the end it's all the same
I might be interesting now
But tomorrow morning it won't mean anything

None of us ready for that life
Even though logic tells us what we should want
In the end we never really get there
And maybe we don't really feel that bad about it

We hold these truths so high
But in a cheap world full of cheap people
Myself included
Our concious is not really that guilty

So I'll put up the chase one more time
Just in case the fairy tale comes true
But in the back of my mind I'll always know
That I mean nothing to any of you."

- The Last Laugh, "Two For The Price Of One"

So I actually made it to all of my classes today. Go me! We made it out to the observatory last night for our second project - we're monitering BL Cam., a scuti variable star...so now we've got two weeks to do the data reduction for that. Then, after the next project, we're free to write our own studies...plus, the professor's told us that if we discover anything new, we get an automatic A.

So there's supposed to be a huge protest (maybe riot) on the drillfield in a few minutes. The LGTBA is doing a gay marriage re-enactment, and the Young Republicans are protesting...rumor is that it's gonna get ugly. I hope not. I don't really have a good stance on this issue, but me and Corrie are gonna go take some video/photos about it. At least it's a nice day today.

So Steve finally got back to me...apparently he's reinstating his phone service, so I guess we'll see how that goes. For those of you who know me well, you know that my life is always interesting...*sigh*. I'm so bad at transitions.

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Social Enemies" www.punkstatikparanoia.com

Zeta Vande: it does, but I just feel all weird and crazy, lol
Nad0725: that's because you are taking relationship advice from me

Zeta Vande: I'm a loser, lol
Nad0725: heh
Nad0725: we all are
Zeta Vande: yeah, well...
Nad0725: i lost the flavoring to my ramen
Nad0725: your turn
Zeta Vande: LMAO
Zeta Vande: that's so a blog quote

And apparently something's going on with Nikki...just read her blog...wow, the industry can suck sometimes. I sent her an e-card...hope it makes her feel better. I'm wondering if it's too late in Vancouver to call, lol. You know I'd do anything to help those I truly believe in to succeed. Fluffy is one of those people...she's been such a great artist to work with...I can't wait to see her take over this business.

Speaking of awesome people, I meant to look up the Spencers this evening. Haven't talked to them or seen them in awhile, and they rock. So I think I'm gonna drop them a line...I love this life...

Oh, and wtf happened to Lance? I hope you're getting that much needed sleep. I've been getting worried about you being up for so long...

If you're like me, you'll listen to a song or CD all the time for awhile, then never pull it out again once you get tired of it. So what happens when you go searching through your music folder on you computer, or through your CD case? Well, I tried it, and wow, did some good music come out in the mid 90's, lol. So I just played DC Talk's "Jesus Freak" album, and wow...what a great flashback, lol. That album, along with the original Jars of Clay and Plumb albums...those things really kept me alive and going through middle school. Remember "Jesus Freak", the song? That was so the Christian Rock Anthem of '95...ah, the memories...

How much has changed since then. Or has it really? Did I really want it to? I'll never cease to be amazed at how quickly God comes back when you ask Him to. I guess I've been away for awhile. These are lessons and truths that I learned so hard then, and I can't really walk away. This IS the one thing that I know.

I've realized recently that I'm being 'blog-stalked' by someone in particular. Orginally, I was gonna bitch and insult, but after playing through that particular CD tonight, I can't. That's not what I do...even now, even with everything that happened in the past year or so...that's really not me. In a lot of ways, I wish it was. I wish I didn't care. I wish I could indulge. But the truth is, I don't enjoy hatred. I don't wanna hate you anymore. If one of us has to put our pride aside, it's gonna be me. I'm not really sure if this an apology, but more like a statement of the truth.
About a year ago I wrote a song, and I want to quote that now:
"My only comfort is this around my neck
I should pay the price but I don't have the check
All I can say is that I'm forgiven, and so are you
and He'll treat you I lot better than I do"

Some things are bigger than both of us...and I wrote that song to you. I know you know that. And I also know that some things can't be fixed, but the only thing I want to ask is that you'd just think in the future about how your actions effect others. That's all I really have to say...that's all I really care about. I just don't want to see my friends in pain...I wouldn't be saying this if I didn't think that somewhere deep inside that there's something human, and there's something real...if I didn't think that there was a possibility for change. I swear to God, if you're willing to take the chance...I'll be there. I can forgive you, and I will stand by your side and be there for you if you'd strive to reach for something than the everything you're taken for.

"Nothing's unforgivable...or unable to be set free..." - Plumb, "Unforgivable"

The first:
http://www.goats.com/archive/030808.html

And the second:
http://www.goats.com/store/tshirts.html

Song of the Day: Fluffy Starr - "Cold" www.fluffystarr.com

You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame, they burn with light and power and rebirth. Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an amazingly strong person. You survive, even flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear failure. You know that any mistake you make will teach you more about yourself and allow you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater being. Because of this, you rarely make the same mistake twice, and are not among the most forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion, and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality and know that life is tough and the world is cruel, and it takes strength and independence to survive it. And independence is your strongest point - you may care for others, and even depend on them...but when it comes right down to it, the only one you need is yourself. Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your wings to guide you.You are eternal and because you have a strong sense of who and what you are, no one can control your heart or mind, or even really influence your thinking. A symbol of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very spiritual person with a serious mind - never acting immature and harboring a superior disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's stupidity and tendency to want others to solve their problems for them frustrates you endlessly. Though you can be stubborn, outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla

So Corrie suggested that me and Lance create a new blog where we'll just post our random comments, lol. But if I get rid of that, too, then what will I have left to talk about? Lance is fast taking over Dana's old position of entertaining blog quotes, lol.

But Dana still has crabs. :-D

Anyways, we had a guest Lighting Designer here today teaching some classes. It was pretty cool. Other than that, not much is going on. I'm at rehearsal, again, and I seem to be getting quite a good collection of fiberglass in my hands today. Grr...

I think I'm redying my hair tonight. That's about it.

Song of the Day: Snake River Conspiracy - "Breed" www.snakeriverconspiracy.com

skunk1skunk2: u ever had whiskey on lucky charms?
skunk1skunk2: kinda melts the marshmellows
Zeta Vande: I think that statement effectively ruined your chances of ever having a normal conversation with Corrie

skunk1skunk2: ur not sposed to tell her about me
skunk1skunk2: u give her all these bad ideas
Zeta Vande: hey, I can't ruin chances you never even had, LMAO

Zeta Vande: so you're coming to visit this weekend, eh?
mindbinge: o dunno
mindbinge: i have to plan this around my haircut

Wow, ok, I just watched Iron-Jawed Maidens with Corrie...what a great movie. If it comes on again, you guys should definately check it out. I had no idea what it cost just to allow women to vote in America. Really makes things so much more real and important. Definately don't want to take my rights for granted anymore.

In other news, Skunk is drunk. Yeah. :-P

So yeah, random blizzard.

LMAO, Lance, you crack me up. Nah, you had stopped responding so I figured Lou or Jay had called, so I headed out...I was gonna call, but got distracted by this great thing called sleep.

Then, at 5 this morning, Jeremiah called, and I had to go over to stay with him. Poor Fluff-ball has the flu, I think. *huggles big brother*

So now it's almost 4:30, and we were supposed to be doing lighting notes and Lee is nowhere to be found. So I'm gonna chill at the PAB until someone calls me to come to rehearsal. Yeah.

And I think I'm starting on a migraine. Whooo-doggie! <-- that's my word of the day, btw.

Yeah.

What? You think talking to Jay is more important than me? Pshaw...you should have hung up on his ass and said, "Nah, man, I gotta call Laura...she's hotter than you." LMAO. Oh...that'll be more than likely the only enjoyable moment of this VD. (Yes, I think that's amusing, too.)

So I think I could safely bet my life that Steve will not call or email today. Or even think about me, in all honesty. One of these days, I'll find someone that won't lose interest.

"It's such a shame...why you held on so long...why don't you confuse me a little more?"

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Pure" www.punkstatikparanoia.com

IM profile of the day, courtesy of Cullen:

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Not afraid of sticky things or getting dirty (rrrrow)
Good with his hands.
Not too smelly most of the time.
(Correction, can be smelly a lot of the time depending on the season)
Comes also with complementary handcuffs
When: When do you need him?
Specialties: Hitting things hard (addendum: with a hammer), setting things aflame (including normally non-flammable items such as metals and himself).
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Aww, come on, Lance, give me some love and link me up on your blog...and I can use the Official D1 Trout whenever I want, so "meh". Lol.

Today I've already spent all my time working on lights. I had to go back to Roanoke to pick up the Intellabeams and bring them back here. They are so absurdly heavy...I don't think I wanna use them again, lol.

Anyways, back to rehearsal. Anyone up for an anti-valentine's day drink at around 11 tomorrow evening?

So you know life is boring when you spend hours online having smiley wars.
*Laura slaps Lance with the D1 trout.

That's all I had to say today.

Song of the Day: Redrum - "Love on Venus" www.redrumonline.com

mindbinge: yeah i'm hung like a fly

"Oh and note to Laura: you told me to call u on the cell when u signed off, but I don't have ur number...dork!"
Aw, come on...don't you have caller ID? Lol. I'll give it to you next time you're around.

So yeah, if you couldn't tell, I had an AWESOME night last night. First of all, Lou Gordon really is a fun guy to talk to on the phone, lol! So we talked about some stuff, then he hooked me up with Bobby Hewitt, and we talked for awhile for an interview going on D1. It rocked! Bobby was really cool and very easy to talk to. So yeah, that interview will be online soon!

To complete the cool night, me and Lance talked for like hours...both online and the phone. Plus, as you can see, he now has a blog, so yeah...fun times. Can't wait until he gets up here and hangs out with me and Corrie. :-)

I love my life!

So yeah, back to paying attention in HODAT...

Song of the Day: Orgy - Vague www.punkstatikparanoia.com

mindbinge: up urs
Zeta Vande: you'd like to, wouldn't you?

Zeta Vande: hahahahahaha
Zeta Vande: You made my day
mindbinge: why?
Zeta Vande: because first of all your title is from that quote from the chat, then second of all you semi-dedicated your blog to me, LMAO
mindbinge: oh ok, lol
mindbinge: i thought u meant cause i let u hump my leg
mindbinge: lmao
Zeta Vande: well, that too

LMAO Lance...you rock.

So yes, the d1 webmaster has joined the realm of coolness and created a blog for your viewing enjoyment...Deep Thoughts, by D1 Webmaster...

Zeta Vande: so for the third time, when are you coming to visit?
Zeta Vande: lmao
Zeta Vande: I'm impatient
mindbinge: i dunno...when u want it?
mindbinge: lmao
Zeta Vande: LMAO
Zeta Vande: "it"???
Zeta Vande: lmao
Zeta Vande: yeah...
mindbinge: let me guess...blog?
Zeta Vande: hahahahahaha
Zeta Vande: I wasn't thinking that, but that's a good suggestion

Zeta Vande: hehe...you could do a photo shoot with me and Corrie
Zeta Vande: ;-)
mindbinge: oh hell yeah...
Zeta Vande: you know, skunk keeps asking for porn
mindbinge: i'm all about that
Zeta Vande: LMAO
Zeta Vande: that's so going in the blog, lmao...

fun times with a camera!

Oh, man...whenever anything happens, it all happens at once. I can't even post here what I've been asked or told about these past few days yet, but hopefully soon I can get specific! I will say that I may have the phone call of my life tomorrow evening!

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Vague" www.punkstatikparanoia.com

Man, it's really amazing how things work. I joined a band mb the other day, and today I got a PM from the band, asking for some lighting advice. How cool is that? One of these days...life is gonna become extraordinarily wonderful...

So I'm starting to feel a bit better now. These past few days I've been a little down about Steve. It's so hard having a long distance relationship sometime. I guess we really just need to sit down and talk about where we're going with this. I mean, we actually have seen each other since Utah, so it is possible...it's just hard not having any idea what's coming. I feel ok about doing that with my job (obviously, as nothing in this industry is concrete), but I guess I want a little more security with my personal life. But I guess that as long as I'm doing what I do, I'll have to find a way to let things sit for awhile...for the most part things with me and Steve are working out really well...it's just been hard these last few months with him changing jobs and not being in touch much. Plus this time of the year has some bad memories associated with it. Eh, whatever. In comparison to what I thought at that point in time, things have turned out remarkably well.

Dana's really happy because it looks like he's gonna score some interviews and maybe even a guest chat with members of Jimmie's Chicken Shack. Right now, Lou and Grace are reviewing an idea we had for a revised "Featured Artist" block on the main page, so if that gets approved, we should have some pretty cool stuff coming out in the next few days.

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Leave Me Out" www.punkstatikparanoia.com

Don't you bring me down
Kick me when I'm down
Put me away again
Every now and then
Your bottle spinning my fate
As I hold my breath
And you say you don't want any part of this now
Where did it go so wrong
I guess I'm finally finding out
It's got me tripping now
The little things, everywhere I go
It's such a shame
Why you held on, so long
Why don't you confuse me a little more?
Confuse me
And I never thought that you
Who would believe that I wasn't good enough?
Those things I never thought you'd do
You got the best of me
You got the best of me, when you said you didn't love me anymore
And I know, this will be the last time
You've got me, running in circles like a freak
So why do you try, to kick me when I'm down
I'm down, all the way down
Put me away again
Every now and then
Your bottle spinning my fate
While I hold my breath
Don't sweat the lies that you say I control
Confuse me a little more
(Confuse me)
And I never thought that you
Who would believe that I wasn't good enough?
Those things I never thought you'd do
You got the best of me
You and all your secrets don't need me
You got the best of me, when you said you didn't love me anymore
And I know, this will be the last time
You've got me, running in circles like a freak
So why do you try to, kick me when I'm down
I'm down
So when you say you've let me go, let me go
'Cause you didn't care about this, sorry you
I guess you'll be all right
Now that you've got things to go your way
How could you be like this?
This it the last time but you don't hear me though
You got the best of me, when you said you didn't love me anymore
And I know, this will be the last time
You've got me, running in circles like a freak
So why do you try to, kick me when I'm down
I don't understand the way
That you're thinking, thinking...
Who could believe that I wasn't good enough?
Who could believe that I wasn't good enough?
Confuse me a little more
Who would believe that I wasn't good enough?
Who could believe that I wasn't good enough?
- Orgy, "Pure"

Corrie, where are you??? There's a thread on the OMB with our name on it...lol. Lance, you can come, too. :-D

Lol, fun times in the PAB. Had a good day...we loaded in lights for EIS for about 10 hours today. It's gonna look so cool. Now if we can get the ancient Color Pros to talk DMX, lol.

Then me and Jeremiah did the Family Guy DVD marathon again. ALLLRIIIIIGHT! "Oh my god, I hit William Shatner!"

Oh, and I never posted anything more about my Observational Astrophysics class. We FINALLY got to the observatory the other day, and it is so cool! We took some really great pictures of the Orion nebula, and we'll be working on our photos this week. Hopefully, it shouldn't be too difficult to save them as standard images and post a few. I do wanna say that the observatory is out in the middle of nowhere, and I'm not sure our prof was entirely kidding about the mountain lions. Yeah. I'm just thinking that with the way the weather is, one of these nights we're gonna get stuck up there. Hehe, that would be fun, actually. And there you have it...my secret desire to be a physics geek.

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Fiend" www.punkstatikparanoia.com

"Create a new fantasia, 'cause it beats hating yourself."

I might be doing an interview with Paige Haley. How cool is that? Lou's my hero, but you already knew that.

Not much going on. Me and Dana might chill tonight and do some music. We're inspired by Fluffy's nice comments. :-)

Song of the Day: Tenebrion - "Precious Youth" www.tenebrion.net

Yeah, so if you've been following along, you've noticed that I've really just been posting in "Duplicating the Obvious" and not really much here. Never knew how much my personal life was so consumed by my career in the music industry these days. A year ago I was in such a different avenue. But I think this is great.

I've been talking to Fluffy Starr a bit about her live shows, and I'll be working up a basic lighting design for her while she's doing her small-mid venue tours. She's not really sure how much she'll be able to utilize it at first, but it's still pretty cool none the less, even if it's only used once, lol. I'm so glad things are going so well for her. I know this is gonna blow up big. I just know it.

Speaking of big music acts, holy hell, if you guys just listen to one of Orgy's new song clips, check out "Pure". It's just beautiful and amazing and will make Orgy fans out of all of you.

Oh, and did I mention that me and Dana uploaded a new remix of Purgatory? You can find a link through DtO.

Ryan Kirk called me the other night! I missed the call, but he seems to be doing well. If anyone needs his new phone number, hit me up.

On a more philisophical note, I had an amusing time catching up on some blogs. It's really eye-opening to see how people will twist and morph the ugly truth into something that attempts to be good. I guess it's "liberating." One of these days you'll look in the mirror and you'll be in so deep that you won't be able to convince yourself anymore. What I, or anyone else, says doesn't even matter; in the end, you're gonna have to answer to yourself and to God - the only two people you can't lie to. And maybe the truth will begin with people finally treating you as badly as you've treated them...maybe with just one single word. But it's only what you deserve.

And I'm still sitting here with the popcorn.

Song of the Day: Orgy - "Pure" www.punkstatikparanoia.com